Cutting
Now, I reached the point when I can tell the story.
I had my puppy, Nissa. The most beautiful and lovely thing in my life. I came home and she was waiting for me, has been very playful and every day was a joy with her.
I brought her over from Hungary, she is my dog, Suzy's daughter, who has been looked after by my mum since I came to England. We sort out all the paperwork for Nissa, but we didn't do a blood test because the time. I thought I will do this crazy blood test in England, as she was prepared with all the vaccines and everything.
The idea was good. But didn't work.
I took her to the vet, and I told him the story. He said, because she is a foreign dog, without the blood test she is just a smuggled pet, and he is going to report it.
I asked him, that what is the point to do this, why we don't just do the blood test, and that's it. He was a dick head and he said he will report it. And he did. The bastard.
This Friday morning at 8am, when Nissa just get her food and I prepared myself to go to work, 2 people knocked on my door. I opened the door, they asked about Nissa. They came in and took Nissa away from me from 1 minute to the other, and because I said I don't want to give her to them, one of the assholes picked up his phone and called the police, that I don't want to give the dog. They said they will arrest me. Fuckers.
After they took her away, I had no time to think about what can I do now or anything, I also couldn't prepare Nissa for that.
They said i had 3 choices:
1. Nissa has to go to quarantine for 6 month (God 6 month in a cage!!!!!)
2. Send her back to Hungary by flight and pay £450 for this (In this case my mum could look after her)
3. If I don't pay, they are going to kill her.
I have chosen the 2. option, to send her back to Hungary. It is ok, but.....
1. I believe they are against pets, no p et would be happy after took away suddenly from the owner and staying in a fucking cage
2. Nissa was a very nervous dog from the start. It tooks her 3 weeks to settle down in my 1 bed room flat, what is not too big and just 1 week ago she started to be brave enough to leave my doorstep and check what is happening outside.
3. After having spent 2 days in a cage she has to go to a plane and fly back to Hungary. As you probably know, it is very often very painful for pets to fly, because the air-pressure.
I feel her pain and her frustration and I don't think it is fair to her at all. I feel this situation as a kidnapping. They came, took her away and I had to pay lots of money if I ever want to see her again in life. And it is all legal! And all because a stupid blood test. It just doesn't make any sense for me and i can see the problem with the stupid system. Bust I feel, the more problem is with the people, who just keep on following the big book and do everything what has written in there. I still can't understand why we just couldn't make the blood test here without doing all these stupid unfair things to this little innocent angel.
I wouldn't be surprised, if after all of these she would have a nervous breakdown or will create an epileptic, as she is not as strong as other dogs.
I am who is not religious, started to pray for her to ask God to give her strenght to deal with this situation.
I am very frustrated, I can't stop to cry now 2 days ago. I don't know what to do, I can't see why she has to go though on all of these shit. She is innocent, doesn't deserve this. And i am keep on blaming myself, what have I done.
I don't expect anyone to understand how I feel, I just need to tell you all of this. And I just want to point out that we are all humans and if we forget it we just simple droids, just like these people, who came to my place and took her away or the dickhead vet.
Ayria:Cutting
Tell me how to feel
Show me what is real
I tried to back away but everwhere's the same
And in this over-conscious world all I want to do is dream
I don't know what you held on to
To get this far but I need some too
Because I'm slipping from existence
And there's just no resistence
To stop this all from happening
Today the pain
It got so bad I had to scream
I'm cutting myself
Because I cannot face
The world around me
Is nothing
I'm cutting myself
Because there's no way out
Dispersing what I feel
So I feel nothing
P.S. I am crying for help!
I had my puppy, Nissa. The most beautiful and lovely thing in my life. I came home and she was waiting for me, has been very playful and every day was a joy with her.
I brought her over from Hungary, she is my dog, Suzy's daughter, who has been looked after by my mum since I came to England. We sort out all the paperwork for Nissa, but we didn't do a blood test because the time. I thought I will do this crazy blood test in England, as she was prepared with all the vaccines and everything.
The idea was good. But didn't work.
I took her to the vet, and I told him the story. He said, because she is a foreign dog, without the blood test she is just a smuggled pet, and he is going to report it.
I asked him, that what is the point to do this, why we don't just do the blood test, and that's it. He was a dick head and he said he will report it. And he did. The bastard.
This Friday morning at 8am, when Nissa just get her food and I prepared myself to go to work, 2 people knocked on my door. I opened the door, they asked about Nissa. They came in and took Nissa away from me from 1 minute to the other, and because I said I don't want to give her to them, one of the assholes picked up his phone and called the police, that I don't want to give the dog. They said they will arrest me. Fuckers.
After they took her away, I had no time to think about what can I do now or anything, I also couldn't prepare Nissa for that.
They said i had 3 choices:
1. Nissa has to go to quarantine for 6 month (God 6 month in a cage!!!!!)
2. Send her back to Hungary by flight and pay £450 for this (In this case my mum could look after her)
3. If I don't pay, they are going to kill her.
I have chosen the 2. option, to send her back to Hungary. It is ok, but.....
1. I believe they are against pets, no p et would be happy after took away suddenly from the owner and staying in a fucking cage
2. Nissa was a very nervous dog from the start. It tooks her 3 weeks to settle down in my 1 bed room flat, what is not too big and just 1 week ago she started to be brave enough to leave my doorstep and check what is happening outside.
3. After having spent 2 days in a cage she has to go to a plane and fly back to Hungary. As you probably know, it is very often very painful for pets to fly, because the air-pressure.
I feel her pain and her frustration and I don't think it is fair to her at all. I feel this situation as a kidnapping. They came, took her away and I had to pay lots of money if I ever want to see her again in life. And it is all legal! And all because a stupid blood test. It just doesn't make any sense for me and i can see the problem with the stupid system. Bust I feel, the more problem is with the people, who just keep on following the big book and do everything what has written in there. I still can't understand why we just couldn't make the blood test here without doing all these stupid unfair things to this little innocent angel.
I wouldn't be surprised, if after all of these she would have a nervous breakdown or will create an epileptic, as she is not as strong as other dogs.
I am who is not religious, started to pray for her to ask God to give her strenght to deal with this situation.
I am very frustrated, I can't stop to cry now 2 days ago. I don't know what to do, I can't see why she has to go though on all of these shit. She is innocent, doesn't deserve this. And i am keep on blaming myself, what have I done.
I don't expect anyone to understand how I feel, I just need to tell you all of this. And I just want to point out that we are all humans and if we forget it we just simple droids, just like these people, who came to my place and took her away or the dickhead vet.
Ayria:Cutting
Tell me how to feel
Show me what is real
I tried to back away but everwhere's the same
And in this over-conscious world all I want to do is dream
I don't know what you held on to
To get this far but I need some too
Because I'm slipping from existence
And there's just no resistence
To stop this all from happening
Today the pain
It got so bad I had to scream
I'm cutting myself
Because I cannot face
The world around me
Is nothing
I'm cutting myself
Because there's no way out
Dispersing what I feel
So I feel nothing
P.S. I am crying for help!