AHHHHHH!!!!!!!
life is going to hell in a hand basket, and the rope just broke. it has been awhile since i could just sit down and write anything. after grandma got out of icu for her heart , we were home for maybe 3 or 4 days and she had a major heart attack and to top it all off. just when we got her stable from that, she had a stroke, we almost lost her 4 times in this. and we got the news that she could not be alone anymore which means i had to put her in a nursing home. well that meant i had to quit my job and have my husband quit his job and move over a thousand miles from our home of 13 years. we only did this so that we could move her to a nursing home in the same city as my mom and aunt and sister, it was a hard move and when we got her up here she seemed to be doing good but then she started going down hill. DAMN FAST. right now she is back in the hospital in isolation and i have not been able to visit in 2 weeks because my kids had the flu. and in this time we had to unpack and start new jobs and schools. but my husband was so sweet that today he went out and bought me a car, it is an old one but it works and it has a backseat so now we can go places as a family. i will get to go and see her tomorrow finally.. i just hope things get better soon