Prayer Please Please Please...
Alright... I have a huge prayer request, something is weighing so heavy on my heart that I can barely walk and I have to fight the tears back. My littlest sister, some of you have an idea about her from other entires, is having a really hard time. I want her to come live with me, but even more than that, she wants to come live with me. I was shocked when she said that because she rarely ever visits because of the scary weather we get down here. Her situation at my moms is terrible and she really needs a change and a new environment.
Honestly, if she doesnt leave I think my mom will do her like she did me. Because of my mother I second guess everything I do and I have to do everything to perfection. Im rarely happy because she made me feel like I couldnt do anything right growing up. I worked so hard to get a word of praise out of her and... nothing. Ash is doing the same. Its terrible.
My mom doesnt like the idea because she doesnt want to let Ash go and she doesnt think that Ashley would change any... I believe that she is the way she is because of her current situation... I could offer her so much. Ashley wants to dance and there are dance schools here. This is something she wants to do for the rest of her life... what does mom do? She squashes her dreams by telling her its useless and she'll get no where from it... This is what Ash lives in everyday all day. Its a very long long long story and if you've read past entries about her, you'll know bits and pieces... But please pray that this will all work out and my mom will let up her selfish feelings and do whats best for Ashley... I ask you this whole heartedly and beg you to really lift this situation up. I cant quit crying when I think of her and what she goes thru daily at my moms... I dont want her to be a pessimist like I am and I dont want her to feel like she has to "settle" for anything less than her dreams...
Honestly, if she doesnt leave I think my mom will do her like she did me. Because of my mother I second guess everything I do and I have to do everything to perfection. Im rarely happy because she made me feel like I couldnt do anything right growing up. I worked so hard to get a word of praise out of her and... nothing. Ash is doing the same. Its terrible.
My mom doesnt like the idea because she doesnt want to let Ash go and she doesnt think that Ashley would change any... I believe that she is the way she is because of her current situation... I could offer her so much. Ashley wants to dance and there are dance schools here. This is something she wants to do for the rest of her life... what does mom do? She squashes her dreams by telling her its useless and she'll get no where from it... This is what Ash lives in everyday all day. Its a very long long long story and if you've read past entries about her, you'll know bits and pieces... But please pray that this will all work out and my mom will let up her selfish feelings and do whats best for Ashley... I ask you this whole heartedly and beg you to really lift this situation up. I cant quit crying when I think of her and what she goes thru daily at my moms... I dont want her to be a pessimist like I am and I dont want her to feel like she has to "settle" for anything less than her dreams...