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Today was quite amusing... I got up and went to dance, it was fun, but a nice workout, and came home and watched a movie, I don't know where the time flew, but in the mean time, I went on the computer, and talked to Dragan for a while, Ithink he was having a bad day, and shared his agressions with me YAY! Not really. Anywho then Jenn called and she was telling me what time for the gym tonight... so yeah I was psyched. Bren and Brian came home and I talked to Brian for a bit, and then they left for his house, Jenn came at about 715 and we went to pick up Brian and Bren, they came and we went to the gym, I did about 45 mins of cardio, thirty on my own and then I did 15 with Jenn. Brians mom was there... it was kind of wierd she walked up to me and knew me, I was like umm who are you?? Lol jk. It was cool seeing her there... We left at about 930. And then Jenn and I went to safeway after dropping Lipski and Bren back off at home... and we bought some dinner, the chicken turned out really good but the brocolli I think made my tummy hurt, we talked for a while, which I can't tell you how nice that felt to talk with Jenn. I cam ehome at about one... and went and cleaned downstairs, and then did a load of laundry. It was nice, til I got to thinking about my parents, and went upstairs to talk to Bren, I just have to get over I think, and I woke up to write my dad this email and I sent it too. I don't know if it will work but i hope it will, I put it in here because I know that my cousin reads my journal as well, and I wanted her to know that i do try, and this is my heart talking in this email, yet somehow i know there won't be any results.... I know that I don't say this too often bren, but if you read this entry I want to thank you so much for being so kind to me, and thank your mom as well for letting me stay here, I know I can be a pain, but right now to tell you the truth, I would give anything to have my family back, it's not their money that I want, which is what they think I want, it's them, the moral support I need. I just want to know that i have family behind me... I guess I should stop whining.. but my main point is thank you ever so much Bren, I am sorry I don't say that enough. Have a good night all... sweet dreams
Email to my dad.
Dad
I just wanted to say and see how things were going once again. I miss you and mom, I really hope you know that. I really wish that you and mom were a bigger part in my life, you may think that I am saying that because I want help with money but really it's not, I just want parents in my life, I know that I have asked for help in the past, but trust me this is different... I just want my parents to believe in me and be by my side again, it gets really sad being around my friends whos parents are constantly here. I guess I may be asking too much, but I thought I would give it a try. I love you both with all my heart, and believe it or not it hasn't stopped, yet sometiimes, I wonder why I set myself up to be let down, there is nothing that I can do to prove to you that I didn't do anythign to harm this family, I really wish there was a way. I just want to be with my family again.
Take care, You and mom are both in my thoughts,
Love,
Mari
Email to my dad.
Dad
I just wanted to say and see how things were going once again. I miss you and mom, I really hope you know that. I really wish that you and mom were a bigger part in my life, you may think that I am saying that because I want help with money but really it's not, I just want parents in my life, I know that I have asked for help in the past, but trust me this is different... I just want my parents to believe in me and be by my side again, it gets really sad being around my friends whos parents are constantly here. I guess I may be asking too much, but I thought I would give it a try. I love you both with all my heart, and believe it or not it hasn't stopped, yet sometiimes, I wonder why I set myself up to be let down, there is nothing that I can do to prove to you that I didn't do anythign to harm this family, I really wish there was a way. I just want to be with my family again.
Take care, You and mom are both in my thoughts,
Love,
Mari