love and cupcakes
today has been a very stay-at-home/do-chores-inside day... i'm not the biggest fan of those kind of days, but it's for a good cause because... i'm working on the nursery and washing all of onyx's clothes and hanging them up in his closet :) and surprisingly, it has taken all day. i have to wait for them to wash clean in the washing machine and then put them in the drier to dry on a low setting once the previous load of baby clothes is dry. soooo... i have been on and off browsing around on the internet, messing around with the nursery and getting it organized, cleaning up the house, and washing onyx's clothes. i'm even still in my pjs :p with wild hair and warm socks.
yesterday i went to the doctor's.. they did all of the usual things like check the baby's heartbeat and measure me, and i asked a few questions about vaccinations (which i'm planning on delaying for onyx until i have a definite feel about what i want to do concerning them). they checked my blood pressure.. and it was up! not very high, but high than what is normal for me. so my first thought (which was very human and silly) was to worry about the possibility of pre-eclampsia, which my mama had when she was pregnant with me. one of the symptoms of pre-e is a rise in blood pressure. but i was feeling really strange yesterday... awkward and odd and uncomfortable being me. sometimes i have those days.... i wasn't feeling too happy or calm because of that feeling, and i believe it showed up in my blood pressure. so that's even more incentive for me to feel beautiful and happy and lovely in my own skin, and not allow myself to feel out of place and like such a strange creature. so i breathed and realized that everything in my life is my own, created by me, and that i can create whatever i want for myself.. onyx and i are perfectly healthy and will remain that way :)
i also went to the coffee shop with natalie yesterday... it was a grey, rainy day and it was nice to sit in the warmth and talk to one of the lovely people in my life. i ate a whole bag of coconut covered date rolls and drank some beet celery carrot juice.. yum yum. she is happy, and i love it when people are happy.. although all emotions are of course, very important and vital to life. but happiness is so... light and simple and pure and open. i love to see people happy, especially those who i am close with because it means they are flowing with life and are appreciating its beauty.
i have been crocheting like a mad man for christmas presents and just because :) it's very relaxing and i <3 it
mostly kitty hats, handwarmers, skull caps, and slouchy beanies..
christmas is coming and so is my beautiful onyx!
these kitty hats are inspired by my favorite hat in the world, made by my lovely friend heidi. she knits, and she knitted this cute, blue, fuzzy kitty hat with polka-dot ears and a white button... so cute! i love love love it and love love love her.. i could actually cry thinking about it because i miss her so much and she's all the way across the world right now! which i'm happy about too because i know she's having an amazing time and learning so much and her eyes are opening. but i miss her <3 she's absolutely fantastic and magical. even if i just have a few close friends, they are gorgeous human beings inside and out. my two girls.. heidi and natalie.. i <3 theeee!
and i love this, which i just read in emma's blog on dance.net: "i like myself, and i want others to like me as well, not like who i want to be." yay yes! don't try to be.. just *be* because that is more than enough, that is what you should be.. who you are meant to be... who the whole universe wants you to be!
and... something else super silly and happy.. i was watching a program on burning man this morning and they had drivable cupcakes! they were these big round cupcakes, decorated differently.. one was a brown chocolate one with white icing, another was white with pink frosting.. and people were sitting in the middle of them, driving them! like they were cupcake cars that just looked like giant cupcakes.
yay, i found a picture! they were these exactly. i want one !!! <333 they are super cute and maybe more eco-friendly than a car? hm?
haha! lots of love to everyone whos eyes read these words! <3 may life be inspirational and bright! and may you feel inspired and bright just as you are <3