welcome to the world
i am 3 months along with a beautiful baby <3
it is something i didn't want to announce until now because i wanted to keep it sacred and special.. now i feel ready to share it.
i had an ultrasound about a week ago and saw a perfect, little baby who was turning over and moving and waving its arms and legs.. it was beautiful and magical.
sam and i are very excited, filled with gratitude, and so happy! it has all been so amazing..
and our baby is due in december.. a winter baby.. most likely a sagittarius.
our baby is wonderfully healthy and thriving, and everything feels perfect and completely in place.
and my sister is pregnant too! she got pregnant two weeks after i did and is due in the end of december, right around christmas..
my life feels completely blissful. i am so happy i could cry :)
<3 <3 <3 <3 <3
last night sam and i went to a eurythmy performance. my mama used to be the pianist there for many, many years and i spent my childhood there with the dancers... i hadn't been there to see a performance for close to 10 years, so it was amazing to be there. and i got to see all the special people from my childhood who i love so much and who were such a vital part of my life. it was... fantastic and inspiring and moving. i loved the music, the colors, the movements, the feelings, the people, the stories and poems, the speeches..
somewhere it touched me very deeply, and i realized that eurythmy might be something i would like to learn.. that maybe in the future, i would like to take classes there and become a student. being pregnant, i wouldn't be able to go for a few years because of my baby's needs, but it inspired me. i love to dance, and i love ballet, and i love art.. i truly adore ballet and will always desire to keep doing it, but it is very extreme on the body.. i have felt that. and i don't want to be harsh or rough with my body, and often, that's what is done in ballet... eurythmy seems so much more gentle. and it's not all about aesthetics, about the physical form.. it's very spiritual and whole and holistic. i love it... it fed me to watch it. and i met so many amazing new people too.. i felt like i fit in with them.
i realized that i have been trying to fit in with many people my age who like to do very different things than i do.. who like to party and drink and all of that. and i don't judge them for that.. everyone should be free to do as they wish, and i'm really glad for that free choice. but i don't fit in with that.. i don't want to fit in with that. i feel like i'm ready to reach out to other people, and start being around others who i have something deeper in common with.
all in all, it was a beautiful night. and sam was there with me <3