maybe i will, maybe i won't..
today i don't feel like doing anything... sometimes i get tired of my lists of things to do. today i wanted to practice ballet, dust the house, and clean my bathroom cabinet... but i'm not sure that i will do any of it :p maybe i will just let go of everything and only do what feels good and free to do. if i'm going to do something, i want my heart in it.. i want to be motivated and into it. i don't like the thought of 'obligation'.... obligations are never things that you desire to do, that you truly are interested in doing, that you would choose to do if you could do anything... of course there are responsibilites in this world and responsibilities are healthy to have. they ground you, but i think they should be done with love and joy and motivation.. and if they aren't, i think they should be re-evaluated... life is too short (although we have many of them!) to live centered around "responsibilities" and "obligations" and "shoulds." anyway... maybe i will do things i planned and maybe i won't! i love that i get to choose :D
so today.... what i would like to do is.. maybe watch a movie.. maybe "slumdog millionaire"? i've heard it's a really good one, and i think sam and i might go together <3 and... i'd like to hand-make a card for my mother's lover's (his name is mike) birthday tomorrow. i love to make things by hand and put my inspirational expressive heart to work.. hand-made gifts are so special! i love to make them for those i love.. they always seem to appreciate and love it :) and.... i want to go to town and walk around the streets in the sunshine and sing songs and laugh and window-shop. and... i want to go dancing tonight (something that i'm actually going to do!) at the little asian restaurant a few streets up.. i'm looking very forward to that. i can't wait until i'm 21 and can actually go to more dance parties.. most of them are at bars, so i seem to miss most of them. i'm still a very young one! sometimes i seem to forget... but i also know that age means truly nothing. there is so much you can learn from a little child who is only 5 years old.. you would be surprised ;)
so today won't be filled with "shoulds" and "musts" and "have-tos" but will be filled with "wants"! isn't that what weekends are about? <3
so today.... what i would like to do is.. maybe watch a movie.. maybe "slumdog millionaire"? i've heard it's a really good one, and i think sam and i might go together <3 and... i'd like to hand-make a card for my mother's lover's (his name is mike) birthday tomorrow. i love to make things by hand and put my inspirational expressive heart to work.. hand-made gifts are so special! i love to make them for those i love.. they always seem to appreciate and love it :) and.... i want to go to town and walk around the streets in the sunshine and sing songs and laugh and window-shop. and... i want to go dancing tonight (something that i'm actually going to do!) at the little asian restaurant a few streets up.. i'm looking very forward to that. i can't wait until i'm 21 and can actually go to more dance parties.. most of them are at bars, so i seem to miss most of them. i'm still a very young one! sometimes i seem to forget... but i also know that age means truly nothing. there is so much you can learn from a little child who is only 5 years old.. you would be surprised ;)
so today won't be filled with "shoulds" and "musts" and "have-tos" but will be filled with "wants"! isn't that what weekends are about? <3