Two Hundred Ninth Entry
First of all...........
A jerk stole a pig head from me and I stopped mapling for today. I was so pissed -______________-
Ah James, perhaps I can't reply to your posts yet today, but I want to tell u that I play in two worlds, Windia and Bera. My character in Windia is "incantium", but she is currently trapped in Sleepywood Lobby Hotel so I don't think she will get out soon -_____________-. Currently I play the one in Bera, "lorainey". Hope to see u soon there!!!
Second of all...........
Another philosphical thought.
"Seed of Kindness" and "Seed of Evil"
If we do good things just that way without expecting any kind of rewards, we kind of planting "Seeds of Kindness" in the hearts of the people we are doing good things. The seeds can grow, surely. But they can also die out. Everytime we receive a "Thank you" or a smile, the "Kindness Tree" in us grow... and it feels like a happy, warm feeling that resembles the feeling I have everytime I drink hit chocolate with marshmallow ^_______________^ aaah yummmyyyy........ on the other side, since the people say thank you they sort of accept the "Seed of Kindness" and grow the "Kindness Tree" inside of their hearts as well.
Everytime we get pushed back for our good deeds, if we become disappointed our "Kindness Tree" becomes down.
If our "Kindness Tree" is tough enough, it won't be affected. The people who push us back refuse the "Seed of Kindness" and give us "Seed of Evil".
If we start planning or thinking about bad things about the people (which, unfortunately, happens to me a lot) the "Seed of Evil" grows.
And here is the problem.
Since we were born we already have "Seeds of Evil" in our heart. "Seeds of Kindness", on the other side, need to be gathered from the good people. We can't find it on streets -________-;;
In our life, so God will, we are supposed to gather "Seeds of Kindness" in our hearts and grow them. "Seeds of Evil", on the other side, are something only God can remove. And therefore He paid for the removal cost with the blood of His Son. Fuh, now I get the hang of the both.
So our task as a Christian is one : gather and spread the "Seeds of Kindness". Of course, grow the "Seeds of Kindness" as well to a full grown "Kindness Tree".
What else... to answer your puzzled expression right now, I am just trying to summarizing my conversation with a friend three hours ago.
Oh yes. I don't know if you ever have such a feeling, but I used to think this way : "Yes God, I am a sinner, I know that. But I am WAAAAYYYY better than all those people around me. Simply said, I am GOOD."
And now I find out that that is a wrong way of thinking. Why? Because of the "Seed of Evil."
Of course, doing bad things in reality (growing "Evil Tree") is much worse than thinking about doing bad things (planting "Seeds of Evil"), but the only way to remove both of them is the same : Christ's blood. That's why they are equally bad for human beings. Plain mathematic -_________-
Thinking "Okay, I am a sinner but I am not such a damn bad sinner" is only a way to lower the meaning of a sin and therefore make Jesus' sacrifice look so cheap. That is not nice so I guess I will stop thinking about my enemies hanging upside down from trees XDDDDD
Well, thats the end -________- so tired.. I hope you can get anything out of this. I do think that it is a big blessing ^_____________^