Well, first, as for gifts, what you said for yourself really isn't unusual at all. If I had to pick a present, I'd probably ask for model supplies...you know, the kit, the glue, the paint, stuff like that. And that's associated with my hobbies, too. Since our hobbies make us happy, your response to your friend really isn't unusual at all. After all, what's the point of giving a gift if it won't make the other party happy, right?
And you may be right about the girls and their gifts. In fairness, though, it's been my observation that most girls like jewelery...so maybe that's why they chose to give you jewels. But that also could indicate that they didn't put much thought into the gifts, either. Much like Liz Cruz's generic "Just dropping by to say hi" comment on Myspace, you could say that jewels are a generic gift to give a girl. Haha, of course, these are just unsubstantiated theories. Just thinking out loud, so please don't think that every time you get a gift it's just a generic little thing with no meaning. ^_^
As for your faith in God...well, there's a problem with the whole "supposed to" thing. We all deal with/react to things in different ways. For example, I have never knelt down and cried, either...I choose to be grateful that we were important enough to God for Him to sacrifice His only son for our since. And I have never gotten so deep in emotion during the praise songs that I've done anything like you describe. These are human things...I believe that God knows us better than we can ever know ourselves. I believe that He knows that I believe in Him, and that He sacrificed His son for me, and that is enough. So I don't think you've thrown your heart away. And I certainly believe that you understand the greatness of the gift He gave us. It's just how you react to it, you know? You're a good person. Don't doubt yourself! You believe in God, and you know what He gave up for us. Believe that that is enough. Even if people give you a hard time about it, it doesn't matter. God won't give you a hard time about it, because He knows what you believe. You know what I mean? :-)
Ah I see ^^ So I am not strange after all. I hope He really does know that I don't mean not to love Him or what. Sometimes, James, I feel like a dirty worm in a church. Everybody looks so deep in their faith and me? I am rather the one who only see the church as a building. And they start condemning me... arrggghhh..........
lol, You know that God sees your love for Him in you. It's only other people who won't be able to see, because they can't see as He can. Don't feel like a dirty worm. I'll let you in on something...the truth is, I don't go to church myself. I've seen the politics of church, I've seen the cliques that form between the people who attend the church, and I've seen that I'll be shunned even there, so really, what is a church but a building? Haha, I know there are lots of people who'll think me anti-religious for saying such a thing, but I prefer to think of myself as spiritual. I know God created us, I know He's saved my life more than once, and I know He sacrificed His son for my sins. Just because I don't attend church like everyone else, and just because I'm somewhat cynical about the establishments doesn't mean I don't have faith. ^_^ So don't worry so much. You're not a bad person, or an evil person, or an atheist, just because you have a tough time seeing the church as anything more than just a church, if you know what I mean. Just don't lose your faith, believe in God, and whether you go to church or not, I know there'll be a place waiting for you in Heaven. :-)
lol, And nope, you're not strange at all! It makes sense that you would prefer gifts that appeal to your hobbies and interests, right? And if anyone tells you otherwise, just tell them, "Foo on you!" lol
I also hope I will eventually end up in heaven. Hell is not exactly my favourite hang out spot you know ^________________^;; But people keep saying that I am still knocking on the heaven's door and noone's letting me in T^T Thats so crueeelll....
lol, Eh, just ignore those people. It is not our place to judge others, after all. Where someone will end up in the afterlife is a decision reserved for God Himself, not us humans. Just have faith, and do the right thing as circumstances allow, and I'm sure there's a place waiting for you up above. :-)
And you may be right about the girls and their gifts. In fairness, though, it's been my observation that most girls like jewelery...so maybe that's why they chose to give you jewels. But that also could indicate that they didn't put much thought into the gifts, either. Much like Liz Cruz's generic "Just dropping by to say hi" comment on Myspace, you could say that jewels are a generic gift to give a girl. Haha, of course, these are just unsubstantiated theories. Just thinking out loud, so please don't think that every time you get a gift it's just a generic little thing with no meaning. ^_^
As for your faith in God...well, there's a problem with the whole "supposed to" thing. We all deal with/react to things in different ways. For example, I have never knelt down and cried, either...I choose to be grateful that we were important enough to God for Him to sacrifice His only son for our since. And I have never gotten so deep in emotion during the praise songs that I've done anything like you describe. These are human things...I believe that God knows us better than we can ever know ourselves. I believe that He knows that I believe in Him, and that He sacrificed His son for me, and that is enough. So I don't think you've thrown your heart away. And I certainly believe that you understand the greatness of the gift He gave us. It's just how you react to it, you know? You're a good person. Don't doubt yourself! You believe in God, and you know what He gave up for us. Believe that that is enough. Even if people give you a hard time about it, it doesn't matter. God won't give you a hard time about it, because He knows what you believe. You know what I mean? :-)
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So I am not strange after all.
I hope He really does know that I don't mean not to love Him or what. Sometimes, James, I feel like a dirty worm in a church. Everybody looks so deep in their faith and me? I am rather the one who only see the church as a building. And they start condemning me... arrggghhh..........
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lol, And nope, you're not strange at all! It makes sense that you would prefer gifts that appeal to your hobbies and interests, right? And if anyone tells you otherwise, just tell them, "Foo on you!" lol
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But people keep saying that I am still knocking on the heaven's door and noone's letting me in T^T Thats so crueeelll....
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