Not Happy
I had a panic attack after work last night.
I was supposed to get off at nine.
Actually, scratch that. I was SUPPOSED to work from 12-3, but traded shifts with Brian so that he could get on WoW. He had already told the manager that he couldn't work Wednesday nights, but she forgot and scheduled him there anyway, so I traded with him.
Well, I was supposed to work from 5-9, but didn't get off until 10:30 or so, and kind of just left when I did instead of waiting. They made me close when I've never done it before and didn't know how. I feel like I was lied to about what I was supposed to be doing last night. Plus, working at the hospital Subway always sucks.
So, I quit today. I'm going up there tomorrow to turn in my shirts, hat, and apron, because they will take it out of my check if I don't.
Sometimes I wonder if I can function in the real world. Today at work I was shaking so bad just from being there that I cut myself trying to open packs and fill sauce bottles.
Right now I kind of just want to crawl into a hole and not come out for a few years. The assistant manager kind of made me feel retarded when I tried to explain why I was quitting. Sure, it might be normal for you. I am not normal, though. Bi-polar disorder means that my brain just doesn't work the same in stressful situations, apparently.
I'm kind of rambly right now. Sorry. I'm just not in a happy place right now.
I was supposed to get off at nine.
Actually, scratch that. I was SUPPOSED to work from 12-3, but traded shifts with Brian so that he could get on WoW. He had already told the manager that he couldn't work Wednesday nights, but she forgot and scheduled him there anyway, so I traded with him.
Well, I was supposed to work from 5-9, but didn't get off until 10:30 or so, and kind of just left when I did instead of waiting. They made me close when I've never done it before and didn't know how. I feel like I was lied to about what I was supposed to be doing last night. Plus, working at the hospital Subway always sucks.
So, I quit today. I'm going up there tomorrow to turn in my shirts, hat, and apron, because they will take it out of my check if I don't.
Sometimes I wonder if I can function in the real world. Today at work I was shaking so bad just from being there that I cut myself trying to open packs and fill sauce bottles.
Right now I kind of just want to crawl into a hole and not come out for a few years. The assistant manager kind of made me feel retarded when I tried to explain why I was quitting. Sure, it might be normal for you. I am not normal, though. Bi-polar disorder means that my brain just doesn't work the same in stressful situations, apparently.
I'm kind of rambly right now. Sorry. I'm just not in a happy place right now.