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i have this really weird feeling, i dunno, i just feel empty, like im missing something, i dunno what that feeling is.....
but yeah i was looking at some old pictures today, and i really miss being like 5 and 4 and around that age, cause the pictures i was look at were the ones when ari, me and nadov and my parents and we would go camping, or we would go to our lake house that we used to own, and we would have so much fun, and there were pictures of like us having fun doing the most stupid things ever that now i couldnt do cause they wouldnt really be fun, and that would be just dumb, lol, but i dunno, now nadovs at college and aris almost a senior and then he will be off at college, and i miss nadov and i know i will miss ari too, so blah i dunno....
but anyway, when my dad was driving me to go pick up lauren to go to the movies and we started talking about my horse situation, and he asked me if i wanted to move the summer before i was a jr. (that way ari wouldnt have to move and he would be at college) and so we would move somewhere at furthest around an hour away,(sort of like what chess is doing) and at first i was like no i dont want to, but i've been thinking about it and i might want to, cause i would get to have my horse in my yard, and i could have more than horse, and then i could rescue a horse like i've always wanted to do, and it would be fun, but for now im going to keep riding princess until spring when they sell her then im going to ride chess's horse dee for a while. but yeah i dunno i might want to move, but it would be reallllllly scary going to a new high school, and my jr year too, i would miss herndon and all my friends here, i would be sooo fucking scared to go to a new school.
i saw racing stripes today with lauren, it was funny, and there was a hott guy in the theature too, so that was funny, lol, yes it is a kids movie but it was good! kinda cheesey but good! lol