I'll be gone for a while
Okay, I won't be online for a while.
My life is terrible right now.
My grandmother is dying slowly. Every day it's getting worse. Now she even has those black marks all over her body that corpses have, although she's still alive. She doesn't talk or react in any way anymore, my dad's totally down with his nerves, my mother's a wreck, because she has to care for her all day long. Can you imagine this? My grandmother wants to die so badly, but she can't, because her heart is still beating madly. So she can die tomorrow or in three weeks if she's so unlucky.
In addition, I'm drowning in work for uni and can't drive home. Two oral exams next week and two written ones. I don't know how to do this.
But anyway, even if I could drive home, I think I wouldn't be able to say Goobye to my grandmother (she practically raised me) again, because I already had to do that last year. I can't go through this again. It may sound selfish, but I can't.
And as if all this wasn't enough, I'm sick. I have these terrible headache and a very bad flu.
And mentally, I'm a total psycho. Every time someone talks to me, I either shout at this person or start to cry.
So I hope you understand.
You people here are the greatest.
Love, Lena
My life is terrible right now.
My grandmother is dying slowly. Every day it's getting worse. Now she even has those black marks all over her body that corpses have, although she's still alive. She doesn't talk or react in any way anymore, my dad's totally down with his nerves, my mother's a wreck, because she has to care for her all day long. Can you imagine this? My grandmother wants to die so badly, but she can't, because her heart is still beating madly. So she can die tomorrow or in three weeks if she's so unlucky.
In addition, I'm drowning in work for uni and can't drive home. Two oral exams next week and two written ones. I don't know how to do this.
But anyway, even if I could drive home, I think I wouldn't be able to say Goobye to my grandmother (she practically raised me) again, because I already had to do that last year. I can't go through this again. It may sound selfish, but I can't.
And as if all this wasn't enough, I'm sick. I have these terrible headache and a very bad flu.
And mentally, I'm a total psycho. Every time someone talks to me, I either shout at this person or start to cry.
So I hope you understand.
You people here are the greatest.
Love, Lena