Past Entry 02
No more tears
Funny how there's certain topics, words, or memomories you thought you have come over,
and had forgotten,
lost time past.
But some how they come back at the most strangest of times,
and even though they pain you,
and they are in the past,
....right?
your emotions some how get the better of you.
As if they have a mind of they're own.
No build up in your eyes,
no trying to hold back the tears,
just this blank look upon your face,
and without even a flinch,
the light tears fall down your cheeks,
as if they had a mind of they too had a mind of they're own,
As if your heart could not tell a lie,
no matter how hard you tried to forget.
It's so strange..
Perhaps it's true,
When not resolving your problems,
and bottling them up,
and pretending everything is alright..
perhaps... they always find away to resurface no matter how hard you try.
Everything I do depends on my heart, my emotions..
I wish that I could just not feel anything even just for a minute,
to know what I'm missing,
that's so great about being.... cold and heartless.
But then again... I would never want to be that.
then I wouldn't be... me.
I dont know what I want,
I just want to be ok for once.
whether it envolves another person or not,
I just want the tears to stop and be happy.