Just Once
When you dream... are they yours?
Or one's that were made for you?
When you smile is it becuase you want to?
....or becuase you have to?
Do you cry becuase your heart aches for truth?
or is it... you feel you are lieing to your self all this time?
I feel this way..
Yes, I know what I've said, what I've lived and seem...
but all that I am living isn't for me.
Voices are ever flowing through out my ears,
telling me...
I am strong, I am weak, I am beautiful, I am ugly, I am right, and I am wrong,
These voices aren't from strangers,
they are from people that I am surrounded by everyday.
My whole life I've made a painful effort to try to be strong everyday,
When all you know is negetivity,
do you keep living it?
Or start a new begining, a new life, and open your eyes and ears to the
lovely positivity this world has finally offerd me.
But to take a chance in a new life, I can't help but fear to loose the very few people who have tried to be there beside me.
I fear change... chances... and what seems to be a untouchable dream,
or finally being loved by all around me.. to be excepted, and smiled upon
If let it be just one voice that can finally tell me I love you,
from the moment I open my eyes at dawn,
and close my eyes at dusk.
A question to myself I've come to... now is,
when you live your life,
can you live and love at your own pace?
Or must it always be under pressure and timed every second of the way?
....and have to be perfect the first time?
Can I make a mistake?
Just once?
When your mind and your heart takes to different places...
Which one do you follow?
Which can you trust to not fail you...?
Let me be wrong just once,
Learn from it,
Be forgiven,
And become stronger becuase of it being imperfect the first time.
Just Once.