making the switch.
its so hard to do the things that you know are right. Sometimes i wish I could be cold hearted like so many others around me, i wish i could cut out my own heart so that i didnt have to feel certain things.
But i know I cant do that.. ha.. and i know that the more I learn the closer i am getting to being where i am supposed to be in everyway, physically, mentally and most importantly spiritually. God has really put some things on my heart that I can no longer ignore, and although those things are challenging and heart breaking.
"Im..so very ordinary. Nothing special on my own. I have never walked on water, and I have never calmed a storm. Sometimes im hiding away from the madness around me like a child who's afraid of the dark and I cant find the strength to carry on. But I know when I call on Jesus all things are possible. I can mount on wings like eagles and soar, when you call on him mountains are gonna fall. Cause he'll move heaven and earth to come rescue me when i call."
When Jesus washed the feet of his disciples... it made him happy to do so, but they all begged him not to. But he did it.. to humble himself... the very son of God washed the feet of these men who were filthy from walking for days and days, he did it to humble himself. However.. we as humans now a days.. can barely choke down our pride enough to do anything out of our comfort zone.
As for me, i have chosen to lay my life under the feet of my savior and no matter what that may mean for me. I will live this selfish, worthless life no longer.
"So long status quo, i think i just let go, you make me wanna be brave. The way it always was is no longer good enough, you make me wanna be brave."