it all starts ...
i was never good with beginnings, so i'll just tell you why i called my journal angelic fear...
i met my boyfriend last winter, about 10 months ago. we were always very close friends, and have been dating for about 5 months now. he's always, for as long as i can remember, called me his angel... it seems really pathetic, but i've always sopped it all up. he's a good boy (for the most part), goes to church and gets good grades. but at the same time, there's a side of him that nobody knows...except for me. it's hard to keep things bottled up, and i'm very afraid of what will become of the two of us... hence, angelic fear. it's beautiful, but it scares the shit out of me.
i guess i'm just a fucked up person. i've had my share of troubles, but i honestly don't think anybody gives a damn. i'm afraid of change but i ask for it too often. all i want to do in my life is write... i try to be as real as possible, but with the school i go to and the people i am surrouded with on a day to day basis, it's very difficult. i won't give up though, because if you slip for a second you lose half your life. i've done it before, and i know how it can be...
i met my boyfriend last winter, about 10 months ago. we were always very close friends, and have been dating for about 5 months now. he's always, for as long as i can remember, called me his angel... it seems really pathetic, but i've always sopped it all up. he's a good boy (for the most part), goes to church and gets good grades. but at the same time, there's a side of him that nobody knows...except for me. it's hard to keep things bottled up, and i'm very afraid of what will become of the two of us... hence, angelic fear. it's beautiful, but it scares the shit out of me.
i guess i'm just a fucked up person. i've had my share of troubles, but i honestly don't think anybody gives a damn. i'm afraid of change but i ask for it too often. all i want to do in my life is write... i try to be as real as possible, but with the school i go to and the people i am surrouded with on a day to day basis, it's very difficult. i won't give up though, because if you slip for a second you lose half your life. i've done it before, and i know how it can be...