Maybe misery is what I need to keep my sanity.
Everything is so fucked up right now, I don't even know how to sort it out. I don't know what I want anymore. I don't how things are going to be, and I hate that uncertainty. And I feel like crap for things I've done or wanted. As I should.
Whatever. I might not update for a while. I may or may not be gone this weekend, and after that, I'm going to be uber-busy.
That's all a lie, by the way. We all know that whenever I'm busy, I always seem to end up online anyways. I just don't know how to sort through this mess yet.
I should have remembered...the last week of July always sucks for me, and every year it catches me off guard anyways.
//EDIT//
Dammit, I hate it when my horoscope is actually kinda right. This is what myspace told me:
Taurus (Apr 20 - May 20)
The waves of sensibility that are now washing over you probably won't prevent you from enjoying yourself today. In fact, you may choose to continue stalking the pleasures that were attracting you yesterday, whether or not you really have the energy. Be wary, however, for you may find that the time you waste now on a passing fancy may be put to better use creating something that will have lasting value.
It's right, you know. Well, except for the me enjoying myself today. Although the water balloon launching competition and silly string fight were pretty amazing.
Whatever. I might not update for a while. I may or may not be gone this weekend, and after that, I'm going to be uber-busy.
That's all a lie, by the way. We all know that whenever I'm busy, I always seem to end up online anyways. I just don't know how to sort through this mess yet.
I should have remembered...the last week of July always sucks for me, and every year it catches me off guard anyways.
//EDIT//
Dammit, I hate it when my horoscope is actually kinda right. This is what myspace told me:
Taurus (Apr 20 - May 20)
The waves of sensibility that are now washing over you probably won't prevent you from enjoying yourself today. In fact, you may choose to continue stalking the pleasures that were attracting you yesterday, whether or not you really have the energy. Be wary, however, for you may find that the time you waste now on a passing fancy may be put to better use creating something that will have lasting value.
It's right, you know. Well, except for the me enjoying myself today. Although the water balloon launching competition and silly string fight were pretty amazing.