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ARG...I don't know, I just need to vent...
Today, I don't know i just feel myself getting down. and then people are like WTF are you like that... OKAY I can't fucking help it so get over it, if you can't accept me for who I am all the time, then whatever just fuck off. OKAY! I have the right to have feelings...I have the right to care about shit in life, and if you can't fucking accept that I'm human, and I have human feelings, then w/e...Just yell at me, make me feel guilty...EXACTLY what I fucking need when I'm ALREADY down on myself...fuck, just leave me when I need you most.
So maybe I just didn't feel like doing anything tonight, maybe I just wanted to sit on my bed and mope by myself? Is that not okay? HUH!??!?!?!?!? and then you got to go and make me feel all guilty about it. I know people want me to do shit, but it's like I can't win, if I go and I'm all down then people are like wtf are you being stupid and depressed, you're no fun blah blah blah, but then if I don't go then it's like why didn't you come, you just like totally ditched us...
*sigh* it's not like my whole plan was to like just ditch everyone, I JUST DON"T FUCKING FEEL LIKE DEALINGING WITH ANYONE!!! and maybe if you guys actually wanted to be a friend you would ask and talk to me about shit...HUH!
w/e...I'm going into my shell, and I don't want to come out, not for a while at least...so yeah...
``Rachael
(p.s. in case you can't tell I'm just a little pissed, this wasn't directed towards anyone, I'm just...I don't know...don't take it personally, ANYONE..this is just a VENT remember that)
Today, I don't know i just feel myself getting down. and then people are like WTF are you like that... OKAY I can't fucking help it so get over it, if you can't accept me for who I am all the time, then whatever just fuck off. OKAY! I have the right to have feelings...I have the right to care about shit in life, and if you can't fucking accept that I'm human, and I have human feelings, then w/e...Just yell at me, make me feel guilty...EXACTLY what I fucking need when I'm ALREADY down on myself...fuck, just leave me when I need you most.
So maybe I just didn't feel like doing anything tonight, maybe I just wanted to sit on my bed and mope by myself? Is that not okay? HUH!??!?!?!?!? and then you got to go and make me feel all guilty about it. I know people want me to do shit, but it's like I can't win, if I go and I'm all down then people are like wtf are you being stupid and depressed, you're no fun blah blah blah, but then if I don't go then it's like why didn't you come, you just like totally ditched us...
*sigh* it's not like my whole plan was to like just ditch everyone, I JUST DON"T FUCKING FEEL LIKE DEALINGING WITH ANYONE!!! and maybe if you guys actually wanted to be a friend you would ask and talk to me about shit...HUH!
w/e...I'm going into my shell, and I don't want to come out, not for a while at least...so yeah...
``Rachael
(p.s. in case you can't tell I'm just a little pissed, this wasn't directed towards anyone, I'm just...I don't know...don't take it personally, ANYONE..this is just a VENT remember that)