So, erm, yeah
Most people know I have depression. It isn't something I am ashamed of, it's just a fact of life. It's been around since I was a teen and I would like to break this.
However things came to a head for me, and I asked for more help. I am awaiting a second assessment with a psychologist. I have been diagnosed with Severe Depression and Severe Anxiety, so I guess it is for a treatment plan. I am going to fight this, but I am finding the anxiety the hard part to cope with - I wish I could run away but I can't. I just need to leave alone anything that makes me anxious or angsty.
To that end, whilst I love BSG - and I will watch it and write it, but at the moment I am having to take a lot of angst out of my life (and I used to love angst) just to lose some of the anxiety and the 110 beats per min heart rate when resting which is normally 72.
I am in the fandom, I am reading the NC-17/R/M and fluff stuff. I will try and connect - I am trying to avoid my isolationist tendancies, I am meeting up with people in fandom next weekend and I am working on things with me this isn't going to be forever.
So, erm, yeah. That's my life right now.
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However things came to a head for me, and I asked for more help. I am awaiting a second assessment with a psychologist. I have been diagnosed with Severe Depression and Severe Anxiety, so I guess it is for a treatment plan. I am going to fight this, but I am finding the anxiety the hard part to cope with - I wish I could run away but I can't. I just need to leave alone anything that makes me anxious or angsty.
To that end, whilst I love BSG - and I will watch it and write it, but at the moment I am having to take a lot of angst out of my life (and I used to love angst) just to lose some of the anxiety and the 110 beats per min heart rate when resting which is normally 72.
I am in the fandom, I am reading the NC-17/R/M and fluff stuff. I will try and connect - I am trying to avoid my isolationist tendancies, I am meeting up with people in fandom next weekend and I am working on things with me this isn't going to be forever.
So, erm, yeah. That's my life right now.
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