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I need to change... Matt says I have to try in our relationship... That means I need to change... He's expecting me to give up... what's the use of driving down that road if it is going to be a dead end? How do you know? It always is... You're not letting this relationship be different then all of the others, I think you're hoping it will fail too, that way you don't have to have change, have to change... So I'm not good enough the way I am you say I am but we're always talking about how I need to change, Im giving up... You've given up... NO! If I've given up I would be saying come get you rings and give me back my necklace... I'm actually waiting for you to say that... You think I don't have control, you don't know how many times I've controlled myself, you don't know what goes on in my head... You're right I don't...
I told about the times where I've had to stop the urge to stab people, him and me included, I told him I do try but I guess I'm not trying hard enough. So I will change, maybe with some resentment, but change nonetheless. I'll change all I've been, all I've know, not that it was good, to make him happy.
Destroying me.
I told about the times where I've had to stop the urge to stab people, him and me included, I told him I do try but I guess I'm not trying hard enough. So I will change, maybe with some resentment, but change nonetheless. I'll change all I've been, all I've know, not that it was good, to make him happy.
Destroying me.