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this is the 5th night in a row that i have been drunk...im not sure is that is a good thing or a bad thing. i tryed to kill myself this morning...took a knife to my wrists and at the time it seemed like the perfect idea, but after i amde the first scratch i realized i was just being stupid. took a bunch of pills, ones that i knew wouldnt make me die just be releaxed and the rest of the day has been better. i got everything off my chest that i needed to. i can only take so much i can only do so much and ive done everything that i as MYSELF can do. i never did anything that wasnt me, and if you dont like it...well im sorry, im not gonna change myself anymore