Results. OMG PLS DONT DO THIS TO YOURSELF AGAIN!
Results just got released. Well I should have seen this coming, right? What you put in is what you get. No, let me correct that. Technically, I didn't get what I deserved. Because I totally deserved to fail. Going out, enjoying myself. Studying last minute, as usual. Did I honestly deserve to pass? No. So... Thank God, seriously. If it weren't for Him, I would be in deep shit with my parents.. having to retake my papers or whatever, or for them having to pay AGAIN for the same silly units. Imagine that. =\
Anyway, I did damn bad la.. Compared to my oh-so-glorious results last semester, this sem looks like SAI! Why why why why did I let this happen. Argghhhh.. I got a PASS. Can you believe it? But..... the paper was reaaally really difficult. I was doubting even a pass. I should be thankful, right? But at the same time also hating myself for not studying better. Yes I totally deserve a slap on the face and a kick in the arse. I'm so disappointed in myself!!!!
[edited @ 2:40am] Crys just gave me an awesome advice on msn which I'd like to share:
crystal says (2:14 AM):
anyway, how's results?
crystal says (2:14 AM):
checked?
Michelle says (2:14 AM):
ya
Michelle says (2:14 AM):
just blogged.
Michelle says (2:14 AM):
almost died
Michelle says (2:14 AM):
passed all but im so so so so disappointed.... (crying emoticon)
crystal says (2:16 AM):
but you see, you were worried whether you could pass just now
crystal says (2:17 AM):
and now you did, you expect more. we're never contented. and since the results are fixed, work harder for next sem!
Michelle says (2:18 AM):
omg you're so right.
Michelle says (2:18 AM):
i need to put that in my blog.
Thanks girlie! XOXOXO.
Anyway holiday back here has been alright so far. Normal stuff, meeting up with the mates and hanging out. Weather's a pain in the butt as usual.. but i'm just glad to be in the midst of familiar faces.. my family, friends, bf and everyone else that matters. So far so good! Heaps of meeting up with the girls... which I lurrrveee. Seriously, nothing beats coming back and seeing all the people who care about you and seeing all those faces you've been seeing for the past dunnohowmany years. Love you guys! hehh.
I'm watching MJ's memorial service now... Just switched it on. Having mixed feelings. The saddness hasn't really sunk in yet. But, I hope you're in a good place now, MJ. PEACE. :)
18 days more before I leave land of the sweat and back to being brrrrr hahahha.