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well, today is the day of my choir concert at the laughlin center. i am scared of it. but i am also excited. we will be performing with an orchestra. i never done that before. so a new experience for steve-o. i guess i fucked up and wrote an e-mail to someone that i shouldn't have. i feel bad about it. because i fear it changed things between us. i don't want things to change between us. i think that i am having most of these feelings because i never really was this close to anyone. never really spent this much time with anyone. and i do realize that her and i may never be anything more than friends. but i don't know... time can only tell i guess. maybe i should stop trying so hard to be with her and learn to live by myself and for myself and stop trying to please everyone and trying to impress everyone. i have no idea as to what i will be doing after the choir practice. i may hand out with angel, i may not. it all depends on her and what she wants to do. my schedual is open pretty much for the whole day. have a nice day.
raven
raven