just to know your alright, i would do anything...
well, nothing really new is happening. i am tired, which is nothing really new. i am starting training for the horse show season over the summer. started doing barrels, flags, keyhole, and speed and action. not too bad of a first couple of days for horses who never seen a arena before set up for those events. one of them is scared of the white lines. kind of funny really. i was runnning toward the white line and then he jumped away from them. so i decided to walk up to it that way he would know that the white line won't bite him.
i still love spending time with her. every moment that i spend with her, is...simply magical. does this make any sense to anybody out there? can it actually be that you find someone and feel so strongly for them, that you would do anything for them, and go through any hell for them? that you would stop and quit anything just to spend time with them? i have never felt this way about anybody. she is different. a person that i can not stop thinking about. she is always on my mind. so much so that i start to drop things. its kind of funny. and it makes both of us laugh when it happens. because she is starting to do the same things. could this be really what love is supposed to feel like? if so, then why are both of us afraid to admit it? is it that neither one of us want it to fail if we do get together? we don't want it to mean nothing and want it to work out and possibly be totaly right. the things we do together, just seem so right already. but is it that fear of possible failure that is holding us back? is it that fear that drives me to continue and not care if we are official or not. is it that same fear that is holding her from committing? i don't know, nor do i care. for now i am living my life with her one day at a time. i will enjoy every breath that we share together. it won't be like last year, where i took everything for granted and lost everything. this time if i loose everything, i will have something to look back to. and be able to say, i made a difference in her life. just like she made a difference in mine.
with love, thought, and tears,
raven
i still love spending time with her. every moment that i spend with her, is...simply magical. does this make any sense to anybody out there? can it actually be that you find someone and feel so strongly for them, that you would do anything for them, and go through any hell for them? that you would stop and quit anything just to spend time with them? i have never felt this way about anybody. she is different. a person that i can not stop thinking about. she is always on my mind. so much so that i start to drop things. its kind of funny. and it makes both of us laugh when it happens. because she is starting to do the same things. could this be really what love is supposed to feel like? if so, then why are both of us afraid to admit it? is it that neither one of us want it to fail if we do get together? we don't want it to mean nothing and want it to work out and possibly be totaly right. the things we do together, just seem so right already. but is it that fear of possible failure that is holding us back? is it that fear that drives me to continue and not care if we are official or not. is it that same fear that is holding her from committing? i don't know, nor do i care. for now i am living my life with her one day at a time. i will enjoy every breath that we share together. it won't be like last year, where i took everything for granted and lost everything. this time if i loose everything, i will have something to look back to. and be able to say, i made a difference in her life. just like she made a difference in mine.
with love, thought, and tears,
raven