cool kids never have the time..

[angelic_rage]

Because if I could,
I would.
And then none of this would even be an issue.
I close my eyes,
and its like a slide show flashing through my mind,
of memories,
or regrets,
of loss and hurt..
Disappointment and rage.
There are these things that I miss..
These ideas..
Of people, of situations..
I miss the person she was to me,
even when it hurt.
Even when it all fell apart..
And Ill never forget the way she looked at me then..
As she ripped me back from that kiss..
And Ill never forget the way she whispered in my ear..
The motion she made for me to join them..
The look she gave me when I smiled at her from across the table...
These women haunt my heart..
Haunt my head.
And I long to close my eyes tighter..
Block them all out,
Forget all this sorrow.
I am tired of these games,
Of all the lies.
I am exhausted by this rage, and hurt I feel.
I just want to close my eyes.

xXx

And so it seems that everything else is falling into place.
The right people are coming into my life,
and the wrong people are falling away..
The things I need are coming to me,
The things I want to do are becoming available to me..
I have hope for the future again...
I am excited to see what will happen,
And what I will create, and be a part of.