dont drown yourself in all those old regrets..

[angelic_rage]

i often wonder what happened..
if she threw away all of my things..
my notebooks, and pictures..
my art works, and jackets..
my CDs, movies, and shoes..
did she cry, and rage, and throw them all in the trash?
did she drive them all to the goodwill,
and dump the boxes at the back door..
did she go through each box and curse my name..?
after i left her there on that train platform..
after i walked away from our life together..
from our home,
from our cat,
from us..
and the years have slipped away quickly,
and i long to ask her now,
where did all of my things go?
did you hate me then?
do you hate me now?
is this regret i feel for you?
should i have stayed?
for us..?
would it have worked?
would i have still ended up right where i am?
would i have survived...?
because you loved me so very much..
and i just got bored..
not ready for this married life you wanted to live..
and now i realize that that is exactly the thing i want most.
so now i dont know how to ask you..
what became of all my things?
of all my love?
of my life..?