bump and bruise. push to pull. hold my hands up to the sky.

[angelic_rage]

where is the rain..?
i feel like im trapped in a dream.
in the moment when a dream shifts,
and you have to think about what just happened,
and how you now got to this moment...
because it seems like just seconds ago you were running..
or maybe you were falling..
i cant be sure which...
because everything is different now...........
yet, im just sitting here,
drinking some tea..
and it is cold, so i must have been sitting here for a while..
havent i?
i dont recognize this place,
but i feel like i came here for a reason.
i know if i just sit here long enough it will come to me.
and so i sip my tea, the tepid taste of earl grey..
or maybe its jasmine..
i just can not be sure.
but i know i need to wait..
you are coming, and i must wait.
i know when you arrive, i will need to be ready...
but i just wait....
and i can smell something burning..
is it me? should i leave?
no.. no, this isnt how it goes.........
i open my eyes.
blink at the day light streaming in my window..
how long have i been laying here?
how long have i been waiting...?
........ she speaks of friday..
but tells me it is still unclear.
and so i wait.
because it seems to be my time to wait....
and something tells me i am already ready.
and everything is going to be okay.
now, if only it would rain.