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I can feel my body falling sick again. As in, 2008 sick. Dodgy blood pressure, palpitations, general "down" feeling - I don't know how to stop it from happening. See a doctor? They sure helped a bunch last time. I don't want to go through all of that again. And we, us, can't take all of that over again.
Pushing everyone away because I don't know how to cope, and somehow avoiding people just seems like the only thing that made sense.
Is this all psychologically related, as Mr know-it-all and those doctors would tell me? To me it's chicken and egg. Depressed = sick or does sick = depressed? Whatever floats your boat. I am just focusing on not repeating that night almost exactly 4 years ago.
The night that changed me for the worst.
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