Thoughts
Haven't posted much on LJ. This post I suppose isn't important at all. I just have odd thoughts in my mind.
Strange things like, what is the purpose of life? Where will we go when we die? Do we just simply cease to exist? Or does life carry on through eternal light? Perhaps we're reborn for whatever reason unknown to us.
Recent... events... have made me really think about life.
I have a fear of non-existance. A fear of condemnation to hell. But oddly enough, the biggest fear of losing myself through reincarnation.
I have to admit, I hate my body, and I hate plenty of aspects about myself. I also hate plenty of things about my whole life. But... at the same time, I'm afraid of forever losing what I have. Afraid of losing what I have here, in this existance. This home, memories, friends, all in this atmosphere here on earth, in our current mortal lives.
I can't accept my existance coming to a complete end. Life has to go on. And I can't accept a hell either.
Reincarnation makes sense to me (mind you, co-existing with heaven). It offers several opportunities for a soul to continue learning and growing. But would you really want to take that journey if you'll be a different person in each life time? In a sense, you'll lose everything you had in your previous lifetime. Your soul will always remember... but it'd be like the memory of some fairy tale you heard long ago. It just wouldn't be the same.
It's hard to have faith in your beliefs when the reality of it is that no one knows what awaits us after death...
^_^; WELL that was fun.
Tell Me What The Rain Knows
Anime: Wolf's Rain
Tell me what the rain knows
O are these the Tears of Ages
That wash away the Wolf's Way
And leave not a trace of the day?
Tell me what the rain knows
O is this the flood of fortune
That pours itself upon me?
O see how I drown in this sea
Hark, hear the howl that eats the moon alive
Your fur it is on fire
The smoke turns the whole sky raven black
And the world upon your back will crack
Where will you go
Now you've no home?
Let the rain wash away your last days
Strange things like, what is the purpose of life? Where will we go when we die? Do we just simply cease to exist? Or does life carry on through eternal light? Perhaps we're reborn for whatever reason unknown to us.
Recent... events... have made me really think about life.
I have a fear of non-existance. A fear of condemnation to hell. But oddly enough, the biggest fear of losing myself through reincarnation.
I have to admit, I hate my body, and I hate plenty of aspects about myself. I also hate plenty of things about my whole life. But... at the same time, I'm afraid of forever losing what I have. Afraid of losing what I have here, in this existance. This home, memories, friends, all in this atmosphere here on earth, in our current mortal lives.
I can't accept my existance coming to a complete end. Life has to go on. And I can't accept a hell either.
Reincarnation makes sense to me (mind you, co-existing with heaven). It offers several opportunities for a soul to continue learning and growing. But would you really want to take that journey if you'll be a different person in each life time? In a sense, you'll lose everything you had in your previous lifetime. Your soul will always remember... but it'd be like the memory of some fairy tale you heard long ago. It just wouldn't be the same.
It's hard to have faith in your beliefs when the reality of it is that no one knows what awaits us after death...
^_^; WELL that was fun.
Tell Me What The Rain Knows
Anime: Wolf's Rain
Tell me what the rain knows
O are these the Tears of Ages
That wash away the Wolf's Way
And leave not a trace of the day?
Tell me what the rain knows
O is this the flood of fortune
That pours itself upon me?
O see how I drown in this sea
Hark, hear the howl that eats the moon alive
Your fur it is on fire
The smoke turns the whole sky raven black
And the world upon your back will crack
Where will you go
Now you've no home?
Let the rain wash away your last days