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I am very tired and drained. I think everything came crashing down on me today. I didn't go to to work. But I made it through the weekend and through the holidays stuff and through classes and other things.
I'm working on collecting my energy and toughing out the next crappy thing that slings my way.
I'm working on collecting my energy and toughing out the next crappy thing that slings my way.
relentless in the destruction of the quality
of the life I used to live free of suffering
why? a useless question no useful answer
exists to justify being robbed of the freedom
to pursue the desires that plague my mind
my body knows none my passion has become
the pain i live. i live my soul
are you beating back the pain
with love? or with hate?
crushed cruelty, blunted blows
scratching your soul
don't you realize? what you do?
who did this to you?
and your tears water a garden
that does not exist anymore
because its already blossomed.
does it matter? that I was innocent
and so were you. so long ago.
beating back pain with love
why not when ur already loving the pain into subtle submission
i do not blame 4 i just do not understand
and does understanding even matter?
i believe it does very much so
for healing is a matter of the heart
i do not forgive for i give nothing
as a result of the endless beating pain BUT
i've replace it with a endless beating heart
because i survived because i live,
even if it feels your dying
so live, the pain with love or something NOW!
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