Spiraling out of control
Called off of work today
Didn't want to, but it was hard to see
My eyes swelled nearly shut
I pulled out my contacts, rinsed out my eyes, took some pills
Called off of work
Went to bed
Work up at 1pm
Worked homework until 4:30pm
One class wanted 1 page something or another yesterday
I haven't had the time to be able to put it together
I jot down some ideas on pieces paper, haven't typed it up
The team lead already has given me guilt over not turning it in last night
But he doesn't have a job, so he has nothing better to do
And the draft is not due until Saturday
I like this class for the interesting material, but teaching style has something to be desired
The other class, tonight's class, only 1/2 done
Its due at midnight so I shouldn't be stressed
There might be a surprise quiz today
I'm just screwed
I have such horrible headaches
And I'm trying to make sense of it all
On top of learning everything for my new job function
Its like taking 3 classes - full time - on top of working two departments at the same time
I'm losing grip of time and I'm letting it take me under the waves as I'm overwhelmed and can't keep up
Perfection, any sort of it, is lost
What I have left is all I can offer to every aspect of my life
Which, spread thin as it maybe, is barely enough to make any aspect of my life consider me serious
I'm damn and going to hell
And I need to just let it all go
Didn't want to, but it was hard to see
My eyes swelled nearly shut
I pulled out my contacts, rinsed out my eyes, took some pills
Called off of work
Went to bed
Work up at 1pm
Worked homework until 4:30pm
One class wanted 1 page something or another yesterday
I haven't had the time to be able to put it together
I jot down some ideas on pieces paper, haven't typed it up
The team lead already has given me guilt over not turning it in last night
But he doesn't have a job, so he has nothing better to do
And the draft is not due until Saturday
I like this class for the interesting material, but teaching style has something to be desired
The other class, tonight's class, only 1/2 done
Its due at midnight so I shouldn't be stressed
There might be a surprise quiz today
I'm just screwed
I have such horrible headaches
And I'm trying to make sense of it all
On top of learning everything for my new job function
Its like taking 3 classes - full time - on top of working two departments at the same time
I'm losing grip of time and I'm letting it take me under the waves as I'm overwhelmed and can't keep up
Perfection, any sort of it, is lost
What I have left is all I can offer to every aspect of my life
Which, spread thin as it maybe, is barely enough to make any aspect of my life consider me serious
I'm damn and going to hell
And I need to just let it all go