before i go insane
Confessions......
*I cry way too much at night
*I hate being alone more than anything at the moment
*I wish ex girlfriends didn't exist
*I'd rather give love advice then recieve it
*I have a lot of trouble trusting guys, I usually automatically assume all they want is ass or they are playing mind games
*When I am upset I don't eat and I sleep a lot
*I had love before but I screwed that up and lost it
*I'm afraid I will never find love again
*I hate the way my body looks
*If it wasn't for my friends, I would not go to school
*I want it to be June 23, 2006 already
***I want a guy who will love me for me, never make me cry and make me laugh like nobody else can. If I cried or if I was sick he would hold me closer than normal. I would be the most important girl in his life. There would be no lies or secrets and I would be able to confie in him. We would spend rainy days cuddling on my bed watching rented movies till we fell asleep. We'd go on vacation together and take lots of pictures together. He'd hold my hand in public. Holidays would always be spent together and he would let me spoil him sometimes. We'd talk everyday and have late night phone calls. I would never have to worry about him cheating on me because we would have a trust unlike any other. I wouldn't feel like I have to be all dressed up and make-up'd in order for him to think I am beautiful. When we chilled at home it would be in our pajamas and we would act silly. Eating pizza on the floor.. throwing popcorn at eachother. On the weekends we would go out sometimes and no one around us would matter because our love is that strong. I could watch football and baseball games with him and think it's the cutest thing when he gets mad cause his team is losing. I'd give him a kiss and try to make it better. When he looked me in the eyes I would see nothing but love... oh how I would LOVE to have all this.
*I cry way too much at night
*I hate being alone more than anything at the moment
*I wish ex girlfriends didn't exist
*I'd rather give love advice then recieve it
*I have a lot of trouble trusting guys, I usually automatically assume all they want is ass or they are playing mind games
*When I am upset I don't eat and I sleep a lot
*I had love before but I screwed that up and lost it
*I'm afraid I will never find love again
*I hate the way my body looks
*If it wasn't for my friends, I would not go to school
*I want it to be June 23, 2006 already
***I want a guy who will love me for me, never make me cry and make me laugh like nobody else can. If I cried or if I was sick he would hold me closer than normal. I would be the most important girl in his life. There would be no lies or secrets and I would be able to confie in him. We would spend rainy days cuddling on my bed watching rented movies till we fell asleep. We'd go on vacation together and take lots of pictures together. He'd hold my hand in public. Holidays would always be spent together and he would let me spoil him sometimes. We'd talk everyday and have late night phone calls. I would never have to worry about him cheating on me because we would have a trust unlike any other. I wouldn't feel like I have to be all dressed up and make-up'd in order for him to think I am beautiful. When we chilled at home it would be in our pajamas and we would act silly. Eating pizza on the floor.. throwing popcorn at eachother. On the weekends we would go out sometimes and no one around us would matter because our love is that strong. I could watch football and baseball games with him and think it's the cutest thing when he gets mad cause his team is losing. I'd give him a kiss and try to make it better. When he looked me in the eyes I would see nothing but love... oh how I would LOVE to have all this.