sinus problems and panic attacks, oh my!

[angelheart27]

I hate my sinuses. I've problems with them since I was kid. I think I finally know triggers these pesky sinus annoyances: dairy. So what so I do? I had a slice of cheesy pizza last night and some yummy fluffy peach yogurt today and some butter with my french toast. Jeez, I am such an idiot. I'm not in total agony, but I did have to down some advil. Whatever. I've also been kind of stressed lately, thus making me feel panicky, thus making feel paranoid. I think I have to start meditating or something. I've gone to the emergency room three times in my whole life and all of those were for panic attacks. That's a big bucket full of awesome, huh? The last time I was convinced that I had an aneurysm. I was out running errands and and practically started freaking out in my car. I made it home okay, but my mom had to spend quality time in the ER with me. Five hours and one hella painful shot of Ativan in the shoulder later and I was as good as new.

Last weekend a childhood friend of mine got married last weekend, and that has been making me think about weddings and marriage and stuff. Thus, I have been into watching Bridezillas. OMG. What a nightmare. Is getting married supposed to be that awful? I've never really been into getting married in Vegas, but that keeps sounding better and better. Whatever happened to personal expressions of love. The bridal industry is totally evil. How much of that crap is really necessary? Do bridesmaids really need dyed-to-match pumps? Yeah, I didn't think so either.