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things have settled down alot.and im pretty happy.
i feel like everythings going back to normal in me.no more confusion.i dont miss the drama what-so-ever.
last night was the first night i cried over it,and only because i was drunk and saw him.other then that in the last 3 weeks,with aboslutely no contact almost,ive numbed him out.he drove me to that.i feel like it was another world i was living in,like i was asleep and watching myself.like a blink of an eye,an year and half ago...i was in a bubble i can barely comprehend now.how could i have let things get that bad,have no control.thats not me.
but now that chapter in my learning book is over,and all i see is such a great fucking bright world ahead.as tacky as that sounds.
get ready journal for no more dramatic bitching.
thank god.
i feel like everythings going back to normal in me.no more confusion.i dont miss the drama what-so-ever.
last night was the first night i cried over it,and only because i was drunk and saw him.other then that in the last 3 weeks,with aboslutely no contact almost,ive numbed him out.he drove me to that.i feel like it was another world i was living in,like i was asleep and watching myself.like a blink of an eye,an year and half ago...i was in a bubble i can barely comprehend now.how could i have let things get that bad,have no control.thats not me.
but now that chapter in my learning book is over,and all i see is such a great fucking bright world ahead.as tacky as that sounds.
get ready journal for no more dramatic bitching.
thank god.