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i want to know what i did wrong.
thats all i want.
an answer.
i want to know what i said or did that set my ENTIRE RELATIONSHIP INTO A TAILSPIN in the matter of 1 hour.
im completely blocked out.he sits and can ignore everything about me.i dont know how he does it,i could neeeevvvvveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeer.id at LEAST fucking give him the one answer he CANT SLEEP OVER.id have enough respect or ANYTHING for the relationship to ANSWER.KNOWING its KILLING me.AND THIS IS SAME PERSON WHO FOOOOUUUUR DAAAYS AGO I WANTED TO MARRY.
i slept 1 hour last night,1.so that today i cry and cry and cant move from no sleep.
AM I ON ANOTHER PLANET?
i need to know what i did to cause this AS A PERSON.
ANY TIME hes ever had anything to say,even if i didnt agree,id hear it.its the most painful fucking thing in the world to be completely blocked.completely.
i dont want to talk to anyone.for awhile.im sorry,but i just dont want to take this out on anyone else in my life,and my bed is the only one i wont feel guilty crying on.im never going to trust another person ever again.ever.
im really considering leaving for awhile...i know sept. 5th i have a fucking 18 credit schedule to attend to,and a brand new store in bayport to open on sunday,i have a whole new life infront of me in the matter of days to distract me.but its come to a point past that.i just...dont care.i want to leave.i need too.its time for ME to not be stuck stationary here anymore.
thats all i want.
an answer.
i want to know what i said or did that set my ENTIRE RELATIONSHIP INTO A TAILSPIN in the matter of 1 hour.
im completely blocked out.he sits and can ignore everything about me.i dont know how he does it,i could neeeevvvvveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeer.id at LEAST fucking give him the one answer he CANT SLEEP OVER.id have enough respect or ANYTHING for the relationship to ANSWER.KNOWING its KILLING me.AND THIS IS SAME PERSON WHO FOOOOUUUUR DAAAYS AGO I WANTED TO MARRY.
i slept 1 hour last night,1.so that today i cry and cry and cant move from no sleep.
AM I ON ANOTHER PLANET?
i need to know what i did to cause this AS A PERSON.
ANY TIME hes ever had anything to say,even if i didnt agree,id hear it.its the most painful fucking thing in the world to be completely blocked.completely.
i dont want to talk to anyone.for awhile.im sorry,but i just dont want to take this out on anyone else in my life,and my bed is the only one i wont feel guilty crying on.im never going to trust another person ever again.ever.
im really considering leaving for awhile...i know sept. 5th i have a fucking 18 credit schedule to attend to,and a brand new store in bayport to open on sunday,i have a whole new life infront of me in the matter of days to distract me.but its come to a point past that.i just...dont care.i want to leave.i need too.its time for ME to not be stuck stationary here anymore.