hey everyone
Hey everyone, I havent posted in this damn journal in over 2 years... I decided to give everyone and update on my life. Well as most of you know Nikki is having surgery. She is doing good for the most part. She has been sick but there isnt much we can do for her because we have to just bide our time and see how things go after the surgery.... I am currently out of school because Nikki's doctor decided to tell us that it would be good for her to stay home with me until after she has her surgery instead of letting her go to daycare and get every little thing that goes around the daycare.. Ian and I are doing ok. We have our days but overall we are doing ok. I think alot of it is because I am selfish and I get pissed off so damn easy its unreal. I am just sick of shit that is going on and I am sick of holding it all in. There are people that are trying to break us apart in there own little way and I am getting sick of it. I can only deal with it for so long before I snap. I have decided I am only going to let certian people be apart of my life and if your one of those people then feel lucky because if you are one of those that are not aloud to be apart of my life there is a reason why I dont want you to be apart of my life anymore. I am starting to go to school through Penn Foster online. It is going to be on my own time and at my own pace. I need something like that because I can deal with the whole going to school thing really anymore. I have been trying to get my high school diploma for how long now and still havent gotten it. Mandi is doing ok. She is living with her grandmother on her fathers side. She is 4 now and OMG is she a smart kid or what. She is going to be mommy's little genius... Nikki is almost 3 now and she is getting so big. She is very smart but she can have a massive attitude when she wants to and talking back omg she is getting really bad with the whole talking back thing. I am trying to break her of it cuz it does get mad at times. My kids are my world and I wouldnt do anything to change them. As many of you know I am living in Biddeford now and I have my own apt. I have been here for going on 2 years now and I wouldnt change that for anything. I have done the whole living with friends thing and that didnt work for me. I lived with my mom of and on for a while and I got sick of not being able to do what I want when I want. I just turned 23. I am living an ok life right now. I just hope things get better for me. I just want to tell everyone feel free to comment on this and make sure to keep in contact with me. I am gone for now and I will be sure to post more often now....