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*sigh*
I miss him you so much that it hurts. You haunt me in every sense. I know you don't think of me at all. You are with someone else now, which kills me. I don't know why I love you so much but I do. I'm glad I met you but I'm a shell of the person I used to be because when you left I fell apart. I love you with every fiber of my being and that isn't healthy. I've tried to move on but nobody can hold a candle to you. I'll be happy for a little bit with the new guy but then I get bored with them. It sounds horrible but its true. There was so much sexual tension and passion between us. I fed off that. Whenever you moved, I moved as well. We were definitely not a perfect couple but that never mattered when we were in each other's arms. We couldn't our hands off each other. I miss that so much. It has been a year since I found out I had cancer and you were right there with me when I found out. I'll never forget that. Fighting this alone has been hell and I wish you were here with me holding my hand. I honestly don't know what is worse. Trying to fight the cancer or fighting back the urge to call you to just hear your voice. I know you are happy with your new girl and I'm trying my best to respect that but knowing that if I said I wanted you right now that you would come over asap but that runs the risk of losing you completely, which I could not handle. I love you animal. I just wish you knew how much and how far I would go to prove that to you. :(
I miss him you so much that it hurts. You haunt me in every sense. I know you don't think of me at all. You are with someone else now, which kills me. I don't know why I love you so much but I do. I'm glad I met you but I'm a shell of the person I used to be because when you left I fell apart. I love you with every fiber of my being and that isn't healthy. I've tried to move on but nobody can hold a candle to you. I'll be happy for a little bit with the new guy but then I get bored with them. It sounds horrible but its true. There was so much sexual tension and passion between us. I fed off that. Whenever you moved, I moved as well. We were definitely not a perfect couple but that never mattered when we were in each other's arms. We couldn't our hands off each other. I miss that so much. It has been a year since I found out I had cancer and you were right there with me when I found out. I'll never forget that. Fighting this alone has been hell and I wish you were here with me holding my hand. I honestly don't know what is worse. Trying to fight the cancer or fighting back the urge to call you to just hear your voice. I know you are happy with your new girl and I'm trying my best to respect that but knowing that if I said I wanted you right now that you would come over asap but that runs the risk of losing you completely, which I could not handle. I love you animal. I just wish you knew how much and how far I would go to prove that to you. :(