not feelin good
into the slough of despond. that is where i am heading right to. i can already tell that this is going to be a day that i regret being alive. i feel so emotionally and physically drained that it is hard to move. i cant understand it though because i havent done anything that strenuous or stressful lately. if this is because a certain someone (who shall remain nameless *cough--andrew*) removed whatever was blocking my energy then damn you to the darkest pit of hell. not really, i didnt mean that. it is just that eversince monday night i have been so aware of everything around me. as far as the feeling drained, could i be pumping out energy at night while i am asleep. also i have been having this recurring dream or well really it is all one big dream that keeps continuing. like really long tv show episodes that have to be shown in two or three installments. Andrew, you know the dream i am talking about. well as i said, i finally finished it last night, or so i think. i really need to talk about it because it has a lot to do with all the stuff that andrew and i talked about on monday. i am also entering the Doldrums--to quote The Phantom Tollbooth-- so i feel really blah and i dont feel like doing anything. maybe one day i will find a part in a play that is one in which the character feels blah all the time, because that would be the perfect part for me. speaking of plays I am going to see Aida on the 13th. we are supposed to be there at 7:00 and we have to dress up. i, however, unlike most people in my theatre class have another class that last until 6:15. so basically i get to get all gussied up in about 15 minutes. gee thanks everyone. maybe tomorrow will be a better day. maybe i will finally get to talk to Andrew today. maybe i will get a good nights sleep. who knows. any words of suggestion would be greatly appreciated.
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