Down and Out...
Where do I begin? Life is going kinda shitty. Last weekend I felt like I had everything...a best friend...a girl that's amazing to hang out with all the time...Now those are both gone out the window. Monica got grounded cuz she skipped school yesterday. It really sux cuz her mom decided that she was gonna ground her for a month. That's a long fucking time to go without a friend...I'm gonna miss her...I guess I'll be alright. Another thing...I'm losing my best friend. He has a girlfriend now...and he changed. We usually hang out all the time...which we still do, but he's different. He doesn't even talk to me anymore. We hung out at my house last night for two hours and we didn't even carry on a single conversation. Aren't best friends supposed to talk and have fun? I feel like we lost those two parts. I feel like he doesn't even enjoy my company anymore. It hurts...so fucking bad...I know he doesn't give a fuck that I'm hurt...It doesn't matter to him anymore...That's the part that hurts so fucking bad...the fact that he doesn't care about our friendship and if we even make it as friends...he has Kalista now. God, why do I even give a fuck? I shouldn't have gotten so close to him...cuz there is no point. Losing him and Monica leaves me pretty low...lower than low actually. Anyone that reads this probably won't even give a fuck so I don't know why I'm writing it. The only person that will even read any of this will be Kelsey, and she will probably be estatic.
Wow, I'm gonna miss Monica a lot. We were actually getting close. I shouldn't have let her skip yesterday. I should have said no you can't it's bad. Of course I didn't say that. Ugh, I feel like shit. I don't have to go back to college until the fucking 19th. That's not for another two fucking weeks. WTF am I gonna do with myself...I have pretty much lost my best friend...and Monica.
It all doesn't matter I guess...I just have to deal with it...I have to deal with all of it...I really miss my best friend though...I wish I could have him back...I don't even care that he has a girlfriend...I just wish he would get the chip off of his shoulder...I wish he would act the way he did when he was my best friend...I just miss him...a lot...
~Kristie~
Wow, I'm gonna miss Monica a lot. We were actually getting close. I shouldn't have let her skip yesterday. I should have said no you can't it's bad. Of course I didn't say that. Ugh, I feel like shit. I don't have to go back to college until the fucking 19th. That's not for another two fucking weeks. WTF am I gonna do with myself...I have pretty much lost my best friend...and Monica.
It all doesn't matter I guess...I just have to deal with it...I have to deal with all of it...I really miss my best friend though...I wish I could have him back...I don't even care that he has a girlfriend...I just wish he would get the chip off of his shoulder...I wish he would act the way he did when he was my best friend...I just miss him...a lot...
~Kristie~