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Well … This is my third ficlet for the community. :)
Title: Ghosts
Genre: Slash
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: John/Zep
Words: 736
Disclaimer: Don’t own them (but I wish I did!)
“Do I deserve to live?”
Concentrated on his drawings, John doesn’t hear him at first.
“John...”
John starts slightly and raises his head.
“Zep? What’s the matter?”
Zep stands before him, depressed and disconcerted.
“Do I deserve to live?” he repeats.
John looks carefully at him. Then he gets up from the chair, approaches Zep and puts his hand on his shoulder.
“Look at me” John says.
Zep obeys, and John looks deep in his eyes. He sees nothing but fear and confusion. John sighs. He can’t stand this loathsome, scared look which sometimes appears in his lover’s eyes. At that moment he reminds him of the former Zep - deranged, embittered, and rejected by everybody. He knows what Zep feels though. Having passed the test, he got strength, but the ugly ghosts from his former existence still chase him. The painful remembrance about his past sometimes drives him mad.
"What's happening to you?” John asks smoothing Zep’s hair with his hand.
“I’m afraid… You may reject me, some day”
“But…why?”
“Do you really need me? I guess I’m ineffectual. I am nothing.” he almost whimpers.
“It is not true” John says quietly. “You are very important to me - and that you know it so well.”
Zep shakes his head.
“I don’t think so. I can’t believe it. If I were you, I would loathe such a … creep” Zep says in a trembling voice.
“Do you need the proof?”
He leans over to Zep and kisses his forehead. Then John’s hand slips beneath Zep’s t-shirt. Feeling John’s fingers on his skin Zep begins to shake, and his breathing quickens.
“I think much of you, Zep. You went through terror and pain, and this is not in vain. You saved yourself from your own demons and gained a new life, but you are still obsessed by the ghosts from your past. I wish to drive them away, right now. Don’t you wish it too, Zep?”
Zep nods and kneels before John gazing at him with devotion and adoration.
“Do you allow me?... “ he whispers
“Just do what you got to do” John replies softly.
Still shaking, Zep unfastens John’s belt and releases his shaft from the confines of his underwear. He presses his lips to John’s cock and drags his tongue along it before he takes it into his mouth. Zep sucks it slowly enjoying the taste of John’s flesh and arousing his lust.
John’s breathing becomes deep and jerky. He bows his head and strokes Zep‘s hair with his hand.
“Enough… That’s enough…” John utters at last, and Zep moves over obediently.
“You need the proof, don’t you? You will get it” John says pushing him to the bed.
Lusting for each other, they throw off their clothes. Zep lies down on his back, and John raises his hips and enters him.
Zep can’t help moaning as John’s hardened cock squeezes into his ass. John covers Zep’s lips with his own cutting off his moans with a kiss. Their tongues interlace, and John thrusts deeper and deeper into him. John’s cock moves slowly and smoothly inside Zep hitting his sweetest spot and making him gasp and whimper. Locked in John’s arms, feeling his shaft rammed deep and hard into him Zep surrenders himself to the delightful ache. In his access of tenderness for his lover, John hugs him tight kissing and caressing him until Zep is ecstatic with pleasure. When making love with John, Zep feels both bliss and agony. He gives himself up to this sweetest pain and wants it to last forever.
After their loving they lie together, enjoying the blissful languor. Zep puts his head on his lover’s chest, and John’s fingers smooth through Zep's hair. At that moment Zep realizes that the bitter remembrance about his past doesn’t hurt him anymore. The people he dealt with regarded him as a “creep”. He recalls their utter contempt for him, their scornful looks and condescending smiles, but he feels no more hurt. He forgave those people with ugly souls and blinded hearts. They all are candidates for testing. John is here to heal them from their blindness.
In his former existence Zep used to be an outcast, but it doesn’t matter now any more. He lies in the arms of his lover who is the most perfect thing in the world, and the horrible ghosts from his former life become faded and inoffensive.
Title: Ghosts
Genre: Slash
Rating: NC-17
Pairing: John/Zep
Words: 736
Disclaimer: Don’t own them (but I wish I did!)
“Do I deserve to live?”
Concentrated on his drawings, John doesn’t hear him at first.
“John...”
John starts slightly and raises his head.
“Zep? What’s the matter?”
Zep stands before him, depressed and disconcerted.
“Do I deserve to live?” he repeats.
John looks carefully at him. Then he gets up from the chair, approaches Zep and puts his hand on his shoulder.
“Look at me” John says.
Zep obeys, and John looks deep in his eyes. He sees nothing but fear and confusion. John sighs. He can’t stand this loathsome, scared look which sometimes appears in his lover’s eyes. At that moment he reminds him of the former Zep - deranged, embittered, and rejected by everybody. He knows what Zep feels though. Having passed the test, he got strength, but the ugly ghosts from his former existence still chase him. The painful remembrance about his past sometimes drives him mad.
"What's happening to you?” John asks smoothing Zep’s hair with his hand.
“I’m afraid… You may reject me, some day”
“But…why?”
“Do you really need me? I guess I’m ineffectual. I am nothing.” he almost whimpers.
“It is not true” John says quietly. “You are very important to me - and that you know it so well.”
Zep shakes his head.
“I don’t think so. I can’t believe it. If I were you, I would loathe such a … creep” Zep says in a trembling voice.
“Do you need the proof?”
He leans over to Zep and kisses his forehead. Then John’s hand slips beneath Zep’s t-shirt. Feeling John’s fingers on his skin Zep begins to shake, and his breathing quickens.
“I think much of you, Zep. You went through terror and pain, and this is not in vain. You saved yourself from your own demons and gained a new life, but you are still obsessed by the ghosts from your past. I wish to drive them away, right now. Don’t you wish it too, Zep?”
Zep nods and kneels before John gazing at him with devotion and adoration.
“Do you allow me?... “ he whispers
“Just do what you got to do” John replies softly.
Still shaking, Zep unfastens John’s belt and releases his shaft from the confines of his underwear. He presses his lips to John’s cock and drags his tongue along it before he takes it into his mouth. Zep sucks it slowly enjoying the taste of John’s flesh and arousing his lust.
John’s breathing becomes deep and jerky. He bows his head and strokes Zep‘s hair with his hand.
“Enough… That’s enough…” John utters at last, and Zep moves over obediently.
“You need the proof, don’t you? You will get it” John says pushing him to the bed.
Lusting for each other, they throw off their clothes. Zep lies down on his back, and John raises his hips and enters him.
Zep can’t help moaning as John’s hardened cock squeezes into his ass. John covers Zep’s lips with his own cutting off his moans with a kiss. Their tongues interlace, and John thrusts deeper and deeper into him. John’s cock moves slowly and smoothly inside Zep hitting his sweetest spot and making him gasp and whimper. Locked in John’s arms, feeling his shaft rammed deep and hard into him Zep surrenders himself to the delightful ache. In his access of tenderness for his lover, John hugs him tight kissing and caressing him until Zep is ecstatic with pleasure. When making love with John, Zep feels both bliss and agony. He gives himself up to this sweetest pain and wants it to last forever.
After their loving they lie together, enjoying the blissful languor. Zep puts his head on his lover’s chest, and John’s fingers smooth through Zep's hair. At that moment Zep realizes that the bitter remembrance about his past doesn’t hurt him anymore. The people he dealt with regarded him as a “creep”. He recalls their utter contempt for him, their scornful looks and condescending smiles, but he feels no more hurt. He forgave those people with ugly souls and blinded hearts. They all are candidates for testing. John is here to heal them from their blindness.
In his former existence Zep used to be an outcast, but it doesn’t matter now any more. He lies in the arms of his lover who is the most perfect thing in the world, and the horrible ghosts from his former life become faded and inoffensive.