Wow...look...words!
I stole this from Shawn;)
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Anyway...I've found that I'm not as averse to being alone as most people. I don't thrive on it by any means. BUT I'm ok. Like, I miss Sam right now (she went up to SG this afternoon...but I'm not bereft.
I've been feeling really off lately and took some time to just be w/me. I turned off my phone and my computer and just read and enjoyed my own company. I am much cooler than I ever knew;)
I know that I've deeply affected someone I care a lot about and I don't know how to fix it. I actually said I'm sorry too. I've been doing that more and more lately. I guess that's healthy. I'm normally not one to say I'm sorry. Unless it's the, "Oh, you poor thing, I"m sorry" but if it's something that I need to apologize for, I don't normally do it. So...the fact that I said I was sorry...well. It's huge. But still nothing. I try every day...but still nothing. It's sad really. I know I'm flawed, but one mistep and...this. Communicate with me...please. It's quite sad.
I've found that I prefer candle light to artificial light. I can't get away from it w/the computer...but I prefer to burn candles than turn on my light. It's an energy saving bulb and all that...but it's not the same as candle light. I need to get more candles though. Self contained ones...it's just...nice. I want to get more from Bubbalina...but they're expensive! I need more for my room. Yes...it's decided, it's time to make a candle trip...too late now though. Someone remind me ok?
Mm...tuna. I love tuna. I've met quite a few people that absolutely can not stand it...but I love it. Fresh, canned...mmm...I only eat canned chunk white albacore though.
I think I'm in love with incense right now. I've been burning it basically non-stop. I love falling asleep to the general one, w/opium and ylang ylang. Mmm...makes for good dreams.
Speaking of dreams.I've been having a lot of dreams about kids. Me having them, trying to conceive, hugging my children. Last night, for instance, I had a dream that I had a daughter, she came running up to me and hugged me...looked up and me, and I looked down at her, held her cute little face in my hands and said, "Aw, que linda!" And hugged her again. I have no EFFING clue! Yeah...I'm weird.
Time to start the time honored tradition of decorating the apt for the holidays...but we'll be moving soon and I think it's kind of...moot. I can't wait to move into the bigger apt. It'll be nice to have a place for everything and everyone. I want a proper couch though. We'll have to work on that. And where to put the fish tanks. I am NOT looking forward to moving the 60 gallon btw. OH...and btw anyone wanting to come down and help is more than welcome, it's the first weekend in November. Drinks and food will be provided...we're moving down one building so no one should have to worry about driving. lol
All in all, I'm doing ok though. Just so everyone knows. I may take time to just be with myself, but that doesn't mean I don't love you...I'm just needing me time. If I don't answer the phone, it's not that I don't love you, more than likely I've turned it off. I've had the phone off for most of the last three days and it's be FANTASTIC! Try it, I swear it's refreshing. I know a lot of people are like, "But,I don't get many calls or texts" the problem is, you still check it. You're still too tied to it. Eh...
Mmmmm...pear. Yum.
I was meaning to try something tonight...don't know if I have enough time before bed now. We'll see. Damn this day has gone by in a weird way.
Anyway...I'm done now my dears.
Love and all that wonderful stuff!
M
x-posted to Myspace
85%
Free Florida Personals
Anyway...I've found that I'm not as averse to being alone as most people. I don't thrive on it by any means. BUT I'm ok. Like, I miss Sam right now (she went up to SG this afternoon...but I'm not bereft.
I've been feeling really off lately and took some time to just be w/me. I turned off my phone and my computer and just read and enjoyed my own company. I am much cooler than I ever knew;)
I know that I've deeply affected someone I care a lot about and I don't know how to fix it. I actually said I'm sorry too. I've been doing that more and more lately. I guess that's healthy. I'm normally not one to say I'm sorry. Unless it's the, "Oh, you poor thing, I"m sorry" but if it's something that I need to apologize for, I don't normally do it. So...the fact that I said I was sorry...well. It's huge. But still nothing. I try every day...but still nothing. It's sad really. I know I'm flawed, but one mistep and...this. Communicate with me...please. It's quite sad.
I've found that I prefer candle light to artificial light. I can't get away from it w/the computer...but I prefer to burn candles than turn on my light. It's an energy saving bulb and all that...but it's not the same as candle light. I need to get more candles though. Self contained ones...it's just...nice. I want to get more from Bubbalina...but they're expensive! I need more for my room. Yes...it's decided, it's time to make a candle trip...too late now though. Someone remind me ok?
Mm...tuna. I love tuna. I've met quite a few people that absolutely can not stand it...but I love it. Fresh, canned...mmm...I only eat canned chunk white albacore though.
I think I'm in love with incense right now. I've been burning it basically non-stop. I love falling asleep to the general one, w/opium and ylang ylang. Mmm...makes for good dreams.
Speaking of dreams.I've been having a lot of dreams about kids. Me having them, trying to conceive, hugging my children. Last night, for instance, I had a dream that I had a daughter, she came running up to me and hugged me...looked up and me, and I looked down at her, held her cute little face in my hands and said, "Aw, que linda!" And hugged her again. I have no EFFING clue! Yeah...I'm weird.
Time to start the time honored tradition of decorating the apt for the holidays...but we'll be moving soon and I think it's kind of...moot. I can't wait to move into the bigger apt. It'll be nice to have a place for everything and everyone. I want a proper couch though. We'll have to work on that. And where to put the fish tanks. I am NOT looking forward to moving the 60 gallon btw. OH...and btw anyone wanting to come down and help is more than welcome, it's the first weekend in November. Drinks and food will be provided...we're moving down one building so no one should have to worry about driving. lol
All in all, I'm doing ok though. Just so everyone knows. I may take time to just be with myself, but that doesn't mean I don't love you...I'm just needing me time. If I don't answer the phone, it's not that I don't love you, more than likely I've turned it off. I've had the phone off for most of the last three days and it's be FANTASTIC! Try it, I swear it's refreshing. I know a lot of people are like, "But,I don't get many calls or texts" the problem is, you still check it. You're still too tied to it. Eh...
Mmmmm...pear. Yum.
I was meaning to try something tonight...don't know if I have enough time before bed now. We'll see. Damn this day has gone by in a weird way.
Anyway...I'm done now my dears.
Love and all that wonderful stuff!
M
x-posted to Myspace