Sometimes...
You just have to breathe.
Yes, I find myself at one of those points.
Although it's only 10:15 and I'm slightly tired. LOL
I want to float...like the fish. I want to just drift on a large current.
I'm in a state of pause right now. Things are spinning around me and all fuzzy with lots of static.
Of course that's all metaphor...but everyone gets the point.
There's so much hurt. I just want to take a step back and see if more time would help. Everything is going so fast and I hate that it's gotten to where it is. I want to take some time and just be. Really try to work hard at it. I mean...really. I want to let the pain be worked through, get past the hurt and actually be able to forgive. I'm not asking for forget...just forgive.
It's an independence day of sorts for me too I guess. I'm just afraid that what's done will spin out of control and will cause much more hurt. Don't have a time machine...or I'd be working on going back and doing some things differently. Hind sight and all that jazz.
We saw like two fireworks...the ones over the hill weren't making it up very high. Oh well.
Hope everyone had a great fourth:) Hope you weren't as boring as me:( lol it was kinda relaxing.
*big hugs*
oh...and btw...my phone is on if you guys need it...I'm still here ya know! lol
Yes, I find myself at one of those points.
Although it's only 10:15 and I'm slightly tired. LOL
I want to float...like the fish. I want to just drift on a large current.
I'm in a state of pause right now. Things are spinning around me and all fuzzy with lots of static.
Of course that's all metaphor...but everyone gets the point.
There's so much hurt. I just want to take a step back and see if more time would help. Everything is going so fast and I hate that it's gotten to where it is. I want to take some time and just be. Really try to work hard at it. I mean...really. I want to let the pain be worked through, get past the hurt and actually be able to forgive. I'm not asking for forget...just forgive.
It's an independence day of sorts for me too I guess. I'm just afraid that what's done will spin out of control and will cause much more hurt. Don't have a time machine...or I'd be working on going back and doing some things differently. Hind sight and all that jazz.
We saw like two fireworks...the ones over the hill weren't making it up very high. Oh well.
Hope everyone had a great fourth:) Hope you weren't as boring as me:( lol it was kinda relaxing.
*big hugs*
oh...and btw...my phone is on if you guys need it...I'm still here ya know! lol