Spiritual healing, in my opinion, cannot be found in a church. It is something you come to through your own trials and victories. It comes from searching within yourself and around you and finding appreciation for the smallest joys. It is believing in yourself when nobody else does. Trusted friends and family and even strangers can help you on that journey; ultimately though it is all up to you to find that spiritual fulfillment that your soul longs for.
Sometimes I feel so broken and empty. I feel that like I'm walking alone lost in a barren strange place and I want so desperately to find something...anything...that will help.
I also feel like I just need to let go...stop trying to control it. I don't know if I know how though.:(
My soul needs something...I just don't know what that something is.
For as long as I can remember - even as a young child - I had always felt as if something or some part of me was missing. After my recovery, I battled some long held demons of various varieties and learned to let them go. That was the start of my process towards fulfillment. I became stronger as a woman and learned what it was I wanted out of life. Last summer I began to realize that John would never be able to fulfill the other things I needed in a partner. When I met Jose, I finally felt as if nothing was missing anymore. I know it is a bit corny and contrary to what I was saying; however, while I had found a way to feel as if my life were my own there was still a part of my soul that was missing and when we came together it was like the missing piece of the puzzle had been found.
I'll have to email you about some of this because I'd rather not comment on here for "public" viewing, ya know? So I'm off to write that email.
I also have the other journal set to Friends Only if you'd feel more comfortable in that one. Or I can set up and entry to have the comments screened:)
I started it as soon as I left that comment yesterday and then he came home and when he left again I started working on it again and then he came home again and then when he called his son in the evening I worked more on it and I'll get it finished today and sent off to you...it's coming! It's coming!
I know...I've been there.
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Sometimes I feel so broken and empty. I feel that like I'm walking alone lost in a barren strange place and I want so desperately to find something...anything...that will help.
I also feel like I just need to let go...stop trying to control it. I don't know if I know how though.:(
My soul needs something...I just don't know what that something is.
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I'll have to email you about some of this because I'd rather not comment on here for "public" viewing, ya know? So I'm off to write that email.
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I also have the other journal set to Friends Only if you'd feel more comfortable in that one. Or I can set up and entry to have the comments screened:)
C'mon!! I'm in suspense!
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