lonely road
So Patrick broke up with me again. Surprise surprise. I was really upset about it, but after I talked to my counselor, I realized that it wasn't a healthy relationship. I was the one who wanted to try and he wanted to give up. He didn't treat me the way I deserve to be treated, and that's not good. And even if we did get back together, which won't happen, it would never be the same. I don't miss him, I miss what he used to be and what we used to have. Key phrase there is USED TO. He didn't appreciate me, and I gave too much. We both changed, and that happens sometimes, but it never would have been what it was before. I think his reasoning is bull shit, but whatever. If he doesn't want me, then I don't want him. Another thing, is that I don't really miss him because he really treated me like shit towards the end, I think I just miss having someone there. I was always there for him and he complained every time I would tell him what was going on with me. There were so many things wrong with the relationship that I just couldn't see. I've never had a guy treat me right, so I think that's why it's just so hard to let go, because I know that my head was right and my heart was wrong, and that's also something that's hard to grasp. I'm always like "follow your heart" well, I did, and it just got me fucked over and hurt. Oh well....shit happens I guess. Life goes on and I know I'll be okay. Thank you to all of my friends who have been there for me. Thank you for coming over so late joel, I really appreciate it. Why can't more guys be like you? Kate's a lucky girl!