Whatever
As we move further and further with our relationship, I grow a bit weary.
Smothered with fear and uncertainties, afraid I am becoming too attached too soon. A weird feeling that our thoughts are not the same, but too afraid to bring them out in the open.
I don't want to lose you, and I'm sure you don't want to lose me, but what fills my head is the unknown. That Shadow that hoovers us. Its filled with; lies, betrayal, mistrust, and death.
The death and destruction of our love set off by betrayal, lies, and lack of honesty. My paranoia is enraged and my guilt is let free. My insecurities are realised and my uncertainties fill them.
However you do not understand them or me. Which begins to frighten me. How much do you really want or need this or even me? I try to dry my eyes and think that you really do love me as much as I love you, but how can I be sure if they are some things I do not know. Your loyalty to me doesn't seem as strong and my trust for you begins to wither away. I do trust I really do, but how can trust someone who doesn't let me know the whole story?
If you know all of me and I know none of you, then where does that leave me?
I am left out in the cold, out in the dark, by myself. I am the only left out there to get hurt. But my trust for you allows me to continue forth with believing in my love for you. I sacrfice my doubts in order for this to work.
My patience remains strong for you to return something back to me. because I have faith in you and me.
:nat: