I am back!

[angeleyez_03]

So I haven't updated in ages because first I was just too lazy to type and then i had a brief period of insanity and decided to "run away." It was easier for me to run away from my problems then to face them and try to fix them. In doing so I hurt a lot of people and for that I am sorry. To some that doesn't seem enough but know that I truly am. I avoided so many people who were trying to make sure I was ok and everything was fine. I thank you all for caring even though it didn't seem that I did. I was searching for happiness and I thought maybe tennessee could give that to me. For 3 months I searched for someone to love me and give me attention and in doing that I slowly let my life take a beating. I almost ended up worse than when I started. I had a lot of fun and made a lot of new friends down there but I never became truly happy with myself or anything else. I do miss everyone down there but that is not where I need to be. Now I am back home in Indiana to face the music and try to mend relationships and fix my problems. I have made many mistakes but I am going to learn from them and move on. I am so glad for the friends that stood by my side through all this and are still here willing to help and be there for me. I love you all!! I am so thankful for that because without my friends I don't know where I would be. Again to those of you who I have hurt, I know who you are, I am sorry and I hope I can fix everything and mend our friendship. I am going to be chilling here in C'ville for good now so give me a call or msg me sometime so we can do something. I definitely want to get out and have fun!

Well I will try to update this more often but this one I needed to write though it seems depressing. I don't know how many of you will read this, I hope you all do, but I feel somewhat better knowing I wrote it and it is out there to be read. I am off to finish my laundry and go to bed. Sweet Dreams!!