OK this needs to be said
Ok, I hate when people think I did something that I didn't do. So I just
need to clear this up.
Ok, you asked why I was avoiding you, but I wasn't. I had been but that
was b4 our talk.
You have been saying that when you would call to hang out, I would
always say I was either to busy or couldn't hang out today, then would
go hang out with other people.
Well hun, did you ever think that the reason I couldn't hang out and was
to busy, was BECAUSE I already had plans with those other people? Hmm
You also said I never called you, that u were always the one calling
me.
Ok, calling people is one thing I need to work on.
Whenever I think to call a friend, its at like 1pm, but they are at
school, so I'm like ook ill call at like 4 then. But then I forget and
don't remember till its to late to call.
I'm trying to work on this problem but I'm sry.
Its not that I don't want to talk to my friends.
So you were saying that with those two thing, you felt like I never made
time to hang out, and that you were always the one calling me.
And that you felt like you were the only one trying to keep our
friendship by this or w.e.
You also said that if I had a problem with you, I needed to come to you
and talk to you about it. Not avoid you or w.e. Well, like I said
earlier, I wasn't avoiding you. And from what I can remember, anytime
you get mad at me or anyone else, u always refuse to talk to them about
it.
Why should I do something you don't do yourself?
And I TRYED talking to you. We sat in mcdonalds for an hour and a half.
I explained how we were having problems. And I sat there and tryed to
talk everything out with you and figure out how we could fix this. But
you wouldn't talk it out.
You just sat there, the few times you did say something, it was saying
how you wernt going to open up to anyone anymore.
How am I supposed to come talk to you about what's going on if you won't
open up to me?
And I didn't even give you a reason to stop opening up to me, if anyone
did, it was you. You betrayed my trust.
when I confrunted you about telling him, you didn't care. You just sat
there, didn't apologize or ANYTHING.
You may not think you did anything wrong. But that doesn't mean you
didn't. and you may not feel guilty, But that doesn't mean there is
nothing to feel guilty for.
if I go kill some one. But afterwards I don't feel guilty or like I did
anything wrong. That doesn't mean I didn't do anything wrong.
Oh and I think if everyone BUT you thinks it was wrong, then maybe it
was hun.
After we had that talk, and you wouldn't open up in the least. I decided
to give up. That if you wanted to open up and fix everything, you could
come to me cause it was a waist of my time to sit there and get no
where.
AND when I talked to u about how I tryed and you wouldn't open up. You
said " well I had nothing to say." Well that's not trying to fix
everything and make our relationship work.
If anyone was trying to make the relationship work, it was me.
I'm not saying I have no blame in everything that's happend. I'm just
explaining my frustrations, so you can understand what was happening.
Instead of assuming the things you did and being totaly wrong.
Because I gave up after that talk, that's why I didn't call you. And
that's why I didn't mind not hanging out with you as much.
I think its kind of humorous how you don't want me talking to you,
calling you, being around you and all, but you still call me for rides.
I'm still gonna give em to you. Cause I want you to be in church.
You also might be wondering why I don't just say this to your face. Well
trust me I wanted to. But when I'm talking to you I can't think, I get
so mad that I can't explain anything.
So that's why I'm writing it in here. Cause its the best way I could
express it all and you would be able to still read it.
like pastor Rick said, I don't have to Like everyone. Just Love them.
So I'm gonna love you as much as I can.
Jen
need to clear this up.
Ok, you asked why I was avoiding you, but I wasn't. I had been but that
was b4 our talk.
You have been saying that when you would call to hang out, I would
always say I was either to busy or couldn't hang out today, then would
go hang out with other people.
Well hun, did you ever think that the reason I couldn't hang out and was
to busy, was BECAUSE I already had plans with those other people? Hmm
You also said I never called you, that u were always the one calling
me.
Ok, calling people is one thing I need to work on.
Whenever I think to call a friend, its at like 1pm, but they are at
school, so I'm like ook ill call at like 4 then. But then I forget and
don't remember till its to late to call.
I'm trying to work on this problem but I'm sry.
Its not that I don't want to talk to my friends.
So you were saying that with those two thing, you felt like I never made
time to hang out, and that you were always the one calling me.
And that you felt like you were the only one trying to keep our
friendship by this or w.e.
You also said that if I had a problem with you, I needed to come to you
and talk to you about it. Not avoid you or w.e. Well, like I said
earlier, I wasn't avoiding you. And from what I can remember, anytime
you get mad at me or anyone else, u always refuse to talk to them about
it.
Why should I do something you don't do yourself?
And I TRYED talking to you. We sat in mcdonalds for an hour and a half.
I explained how we were having problems. And I sat there and tryed to
talk everything out with you and figure out how we could fix this. But
you wouldn't talk it out.
You just sat there, the few times you did say something, it was saying
how you wernt going to open up to anyone anymore.
How am I supposed to come talk to you about what's going on if you won't
open up to me?
And I didn't even give you a reason to stop opening up to me, if anyone
did, it was you. You betrayed my trust.
when I confrunted you about telling him, you didn't care. You just sat
there, didn't apologize or ANYTHING.
You may not think you did anything wrong. But that doesn't mean you
didn't. and you may not feel guilty, But that doesn't mean there is
nothing to feel guilty for.
if I go kill some one. But afterwards I don't feel guilty or like I did
anything wrong. That doesn't mean I didn't do anything wrong.
Oh and I think if everyone BUT you thinks it was wrong, then maybe it
was hun.
After we had that talk, and you wouldn't open up in the least. I decided
to give up. That if you wanted to open up and fix everything, you could
come to me cause it was a waist of my time to sit there and get no
where.
AND when I talked to u about how I tryed and you wouldn't open up. You
said " well I had nothing to say." Well that's not trying to fix
everything and make our relationship work.
If anyone was trying to make the relationship work, it was me.
I'm not saying I have no blame in everything that's happend. I'm just
explaining my frustrations, so you can understand what was happening.
Instead of assuming the things you did and being totaly wrong.
Because I gave up after that talk, that's why I didn't call you. And
that's why I didn't mind not hanging out with you as much.
I think its kind of humorous how you don't want me talking to you,
calling you, being around you and all, but you still call me for rides.
I'm still gonna give em to you. Cause I want you to be in church.
You also might be wondering why I don't just say this to your face. Well
trust me I wanted to. But when I'm talking to you I can't think, I get
so mad that I can't explain anything.
So that's why I'm writing it in here. Cause its the best way I could
express it all and you would be able to still read it.
like pastor Rick said, I don't have to Like everyone. Just Love them.
So I'm gonna love you as much as I can.
Jen