miracles happen
Miracles happen every day.
There are moments in life that people think are completely normal,, part of life.... that others have learned are compelte, God made miracles.
I'm pregnant.
Almost 28 weeks pregnant...
I still walk around,,, and have to remind myself that there is a tiny human growing inside of me,,, and it's really happening. You can wait for something,,, for what seems like forever..... and you might think it will never happen... but one day... it does... and you can think back through the sequence of events that led up to a moment and be completely amazed... God's timing is flawless. I could not have tried to plan this baby at a more perfect time.
With this miracle... I am reminded that HE gives and takes away.
Porter, my first fur child.... has become aggressive over that past year and i am heart broken... I'm experiencing a saddness that cannot be soothed. Rehoming him is going to be almost impossible. I can't count the tears I have already shed over him... countless.
Porter was perfect. He was this perfect beautiful doberman... and then we had to get another one... because we LOVE them.... and he just couldn't handle it... I dont know why... He was perfectly socialized, loved ALL dogs and was sweet as could be.... I'm terrified that he will end up in the wrong hands and be put down... If he ever has to be put down, I want to be the one to do it.
This dog is matts best friend,, they hike every night together.. Porter explored Alaska with us.... he hiked mountains with us, he slept in tents with us... He traveled on a plane with us... he snuggles in bed with us for a whole year and he went to work with matt every single day for over a year.... He wan'ts to be good,,,, but there is something wrong,, and we just cannot figure it out. I hope someone can... he's a beautiful boy.... who loves to be loved.
I don't know how we're going to rehome him... and I don't know how I will every stop crying over him... but as proven before, there is a reason for everything and we can't see the big picture..... I keep praying that God will bring the perfect new family for porter, but i still feel doubt and confusion.
Back to happy thoughts....This baby Girl is due May 24th, the day after school gets out! Perfect timing for summer...and for Matt and I to be 100% available,,, and on the SAME schedule... ha. What a beautiful thing! So many things to be nervous about...and of course excited too! It's all just pretty crazy to think about.
Finally. So excited.