*Girls Just Gotta Have Fun*
What a fucken weekend...like seriously fucken crazy! Bryan came on Saturday. My parents went out for the night and I was like thank God, so they left a little after 4pm and I was like good, my parents don't have to interogate him. WRONG. He showed up RIGHT when they were getting in the car. Ugh, so they finally left, we just layed around, talked, got Pizza Hut & "Elf" with Kristin and Rob, watched the movie at my house, Kristin & Rob went home and we layed on the couch. I cannot even explain the feelings I get when I'm with him. Seriously, I'd tell you, but it's so cheesey and Idk it's just such a good feeling.
I was feeling bad about the Aaron thing so I asked Bryan when he was leaving what we were...I totally caught him off-guard. I wanted to know b/c I didn't know if I cheated on him, I was 80% sure we weren't official, and we werent, so that was good. But then we kinda made it official without even thinking about it. I had all day to think about it yesterday and the thought scared me. Don't get me wrong I am a good girl and I seriously want to be with him, but I think that's moving way too fast not to mention he doesn't know where he'll be in six months. I have fun at shows, meeting new people, and I honestly feel like that's taken away from me if I have a b/f right now. I like to drink and have a good time, let loose, get my stress out, I don't want to feel guilty and fuck things up. So yea we talked yesterday and took a step back. I feel like complete asshole for fucking with him like that but I wrote him an email at 4am so hopefully that'll clear things up. I cannot wait to see him this weekend :o)
So yesterday Aaron and I were talking and I got back at school around 6pm, called him around 9pm. We met up at 11pm in Boston & hung out all night. He was so fucken drunk it was kinda funny. He took his skull hoody back :o( He's hilarious, though. He's like, you smell miraculous lmao. I was like thanks :o\ I know this sounds bad I was just praising Bry Bry & then I went out last night but Aaron is........fun. That's that. I got back at 3:30am which sucked for him b/c he had to work @ 5am. I was surprised how it went, though...really surprised. It was a cold night, kinda haha. No it was good :o) It's just hard b/c he lives near me and Bryan doesn't.
So Bryan and I are taking it day by day, still seeing each other, talking, getting to know each other and we're going to see where that goes. That's that. I'm going to go lie down for a bit then get up to finish working on this project. Ugh, I'm so sick of school....
I was feeling bad about the Aaron thing so I asked Bryan when he was leaving what we were...I totally caught him off-guard. I wanted to know b/c I didn't know if I cheated on him, I was 80% sure we weren't official, and we werent, so that was good. But then we kinda made it official without even thinking about it. I had all day to think about it yesterday and the thought scared me. Don't get me wrong I am a good girl and I seriously want to be with him, but I think that's moving way too fast not to mention he doesn't know where he'll be in six months. I have fun at shows, meeting new people, and I honestly feel like that's taken away from me if I have a b/f right now. I like to drink and have a good time, let loose, get my stress out, I don't want to feel guilty and fuck things up. So yea we talked yesterday and took a step back. I feel like complete asshole for fucking with him like that but I wrote him an email at 4am so hopefully that'll clear things up. I cannot wait to see him this weekend :o)
So yesterday Aaron and I were talking and I got back at school around 6pm, called him around 9pm. We met up at 11pm in Boston & hung out all night. He was so fucken drunk it was kinda funny. He took his skull hoody back :o( He's hilarious, though. He's like, you smell miraculous lmao. I was like thanks :o\ I know this sounds bad I was just praising Bry Bry & then I went out last night but Aaron is........fun. That's that. I got back at 3:30am which sucked for him b/c he had to work @ 5am. I was surprised how it went, though...really surprised. It was a cold night, kinda haha. No it was good :o) It's just hard b/c he lives near me and Bryan doesn't.
So Bryan and I are taking it day by day, still seeing each other, talking, getting to know each other and we're going to see where that goes. That's that. I'm going to go lie down for a bit then get up to finish working on this project. Ugh, I'm so sick of school....