Hurt yourself on the outside to kill the thing on the inside
Court didn't go as I wanted it to. More paperwork to do. 3 more weeks of waiting to be free (legally). I hate this.
I don't want to go to work. I just want to sleep, but I can't. I'm nervous. I'm disappointed. I just feel... low.
He's leaving. I'm not even sure how I feel about that. I'm sad that my family really is falling apart. It's probably better for him to get away though. She's not taking it well. She can't let go. I don't want to be like her. I don't want to need people.
I need to feel something again. The anger has slowly slipped away. Now there is nothing. I'm not mad. I'm not happy. I just am. Numb.
I don't want to go to work. I just want to sleep, but I can't. I'm nervous. I'm disappointed. I just feel... low.
He's leaving. I'm not even sure how I feel about that. I'm sad that my family really is falling apart. It's probably better for him to get away though. She's not taking it well. She can't let go. I don't want to be like her. I don't want to need people.
I need to feel something again. The anger has slowly slipped away. Now there is nothing. I'm not mad. I'm not happy. I just am. Numb.